Mushy and maro's world

Hongkong here we come!!

2009-08-09T22:16:00.002+10:00

This is a prelude of what is coming up for us! Its going to be a fun filled adventure i am sure.. hee i cant wait to start our little tour in Hongkong.. its been such a long time since i went on any holiday with maro alone. I am going to upload lots of pics when i am back. In the meantime i will continue to feel excited about going to Hongkong in less than 12 hours time!

Fun time!

2009-05-24T23:10:00.010+10:00

Time to revive our love blog and stop being lazy! hee. Had a good day resting and nuaing today... rejuvenating indeed! and I finished reading Angels and DemonS! I admit I read very slowly.. hee about 2 pages a day? But Angels and DemonS is 1 book that I can managed to finish reading so soon!!and It's recommended by Keke when he read it in Aussie. Love the movie as well... realized they changed quite a bit here and there.. but overall, the changes didnt appeared too obvious nor clumpsy!

Okie.. back to the main theme as to why I decided to update blog blog today! Coz we went on a Night Safari adventurous nightouT!! It's our first visit there wor.. and wth! I'm truly amazed by the turnout... Didnt quite expect so so so so many people to still visit these kind of places. Here's the pictures for the night.. not much leh.. U know la.. Flashlight are prohibited within night safari as it may scared the animals!

We wanted to catch the Creatures of the Night show @ 8.30pm. But when we got there, entry for the 8.30pm show was full and there were a whole pack of people queueing for the next show. WTH! I thought only Singaporeans love to queue... But those queueing seem to be visiting Indians loh! haiz.. So we started walking the east trails instead because the number of people waiting for the trams were crazy too!! It wasnt that great a walk la.. haha not much animals to see too leh. But it was nice walking with xiao yuan yuan hee. I love to walk with u.

Okie.. that picture is obviously not real! haha but we did caught the sight of a leopard with very very close proximity! This particular leopard seem to be able to sense human presence and kept pacing to and fro @ the window pane. I must admit it look very very pretty! There's this new design from Crocs of leopard prints recently.. hee maybe can go buy hor?? haha.

More zi lian-ing while waiting for the tram... hee keke looks a bit like Hong Jin Bao in the 2nd picture!! ops.. He's gonna kill me. hee

The tram ride would be rated EXCELLENT if not for the price. 10 bucks pp is a bit pricey leh. But anyway it was pretty good la.. we had a really close encounter with the deers. Thank god for the weather that day maybe. The cool breeze brushing against our face was nice and refreshing! At the end of which.... we STILL didnt get to catch the show.. hAiZ.... haiz haiz... haiz.! That's was disappointing. But nvm hee.. maybe we can go again sometime later. haha. 2nd excursion. Thanks for brining me on the trip!

Had another wonderful weekend this week with xiao yuan again! Main highlight of the weekend... Our little indulgence @ SeaFood Harvest -Jack's Place! Yummy Yummy food + it's not very ex wor!! Look @ the spread!!!

Looking forward to next week... Fat love dog is gonna have some treats from me!!!

hee new song!

2009-05-05T23:15:00.002+10:00

decided to change the song to something that Keke likes!! next time we can sing @ ktv wor!

I love Weekends!

2009-05-03T00:07:00.003+10:00

I am using my baby's com to type this entry.. its been such a long time since i blogged or rather any of us blogged. I just finished my CPA paper.. even if i manage to pass this one there's still like 4 more papers to go b4 i can finally become a CPA. It really is a long an arduous journey. Hopefully the rest of the papers will be a breeze ba.. This weekend is like a super rest week for me.. haha just kept on sleeping at maro's house. I dunno y i am so tired. Or maybe its my body's way of dealing with the coming week of work. I know my baby wants to watch men of the origins badly but i am sorry we did not watch it this week. We will catch it next week k.. dun be angry le la.. my baby has a fiery temper that no one would ever see except for me. Because she only flares up at the person she loves most ! Which is me.. lim ah fat.. keke.. i love u so much u know.. after u come out from bathing u will have a surprise! Hopefully your pms is better alrdy.. if only i can share some of the pain for u . . Dear got time must blog k! I dun even know if you got check our little mushymaro world or not.. muacks!

the best things in life..

2009-03-31T01:03:00.002+11:00

haha. Looking at the previous blog make me laugh!! what's with the no oily food and fast food??! when u just went on a eating spree last week!!! first with ur piggy frenz and den by urself! aiyo... keke must really learn to take care wor...!

Suddenly feel like updating our little blog blog today!!hee it's been quiet for a while le... feeling rather emotional today becoz of a news that I hear about 1 of my colleague who apparently broke up with her bf for another colleague. haiz... it was rather unexpected.. especially of someone who I dun think would do this kind of thing. But then, what is wrong? and what is right? It's so hard to even pass a clear judgement call on this!

What's the purpose of living? To earn money, to be rich but being so busy and pre-occupied with oneself, ignoring family and loved ones? To study hard and have tuition everyday in preparation of PSLE? To slog one's life all for the sake of a decent meal? To put on a pretentious front and spread unnecessary rumours about ur frenz?

Important things in life
Money: Essential!!! it's good to have a lot of it.. but if u dun, it's fine as long as u can survive.
House: A warm cosy home is all that's required and that's independent of the size of the house.
Friends: A few true friends would be suffiicient!
Career: a kind that u love preferrably but even if u dun, make sense of it and strive to excel in it, putting in ur best!!!
Love: someone who completes me

I'm contented with life now as I have the best things in my life!!! I'm a happie, simple girl who simply longs for weekend with Keke and Mecy.

My 27th Birthday!

2009-02-01T04:01:00.002+11:00

My 27th Birthday ended in a flash.. times passes so fast without me even realising it.. This year i celebrated my birthday with my loved ones.. my cutest baby maro.. my family and of course our newest addition to our family, Mecy! I wish the wkends could be longer b cos there are so many things i want to do yet so little time! My dear.. if u are reading this entry i want u to know that the biggest present i can get from you is U.. hee. u dun have to get me anything because u r already the best and biggest present i am getting! I am so looking forward to August.. this time round we are going to make it a shopping trip for u k! u deserve one after such a long time curbing ur shopping addiction. Dear i will take care of myself one.. because i know i need to take care of u in the future! No more Oily food.. no more Sweet Food... no more Fast Food!!! Melvin jia you !!!

weird day

2009-01-17T20:54:00.002+11:00

As I'm sitting here updating our blog after so long, it's with a heavy heart. My Keke is exhausted from all the work this week. Lack of sleep is sacry wor. Keke became really grouchy, easily irritably and not his normal self! It's bad that I couldnt do anything to help... only to let him have his sleep. But on the flip side, I really wonder how long he can take it. It simply doesnt make sense that everyone else is coping fine... and that my Keke cant? I think I can only judge his work with CY and Qifen who suffered worse fate than his when he started work. But then.. I really believe my Keke is a strong boy!!! He can do it one! Sweetness follows intense bitter.. Keke must bear that in mind.

It's such a weird day.. I dunno why but it feels really weird! haha. I got really worried when Keke told me he wanna smoke. WTF!! I remember when he told me junwei was smoking.. His reaction was of disgust as well. But now I'm wondering whether he had already started on it. I hope and pray not because I HATE SMOKERS. They pollute the air, passing on the dirty air to passerys.. and very often ended up killing their close ones who happened to be the passive smoking. IT's SIMPLY SICKENING! Keke.... there r lots of ways to relieve stress okie? Please dont try things that u wouldnt even have touch in the past... It's really easy to pick up bad habits but tremendously hard to kick it.

YeeYee will always be here for u okie? Keke must hang in there...... Keep looking forward to august!! Our motivation okie?

Love u always.. Yee

mecy is 1 year old!!!!

2008-12-14T23:44:00.003+11:00

Ops..cannot be lazy le wor... It's Keke's turn to be down with some weird food poisoning. Dont tell me the pain really transferred to him?!!?? How is that possible!!!!? I hope keke will get well soon wor!!!! If not, I'll feel bad! Spent the last few days in pain and torment.. So glad it's over! Keke must get well!!!! I heart pain to see u in pain! I hate to be sick! But luckily got TLC from Keke and mummy... Sorry xiao yuan never go find u today..

Today was a quiet day.. Actually I enjoy spending time at home. Hee.. watch our fav shows.. read my book.. FINALLY finished eragon.. gonna start on eldest soon so that Keke can bring back to read! Listen to music... online to download things.. it's a luxury to be home!

Mecy turns 1 year old in human lifespan on 11 dec!!!! Dog's lifespan and human lifespan differs right? Cant remember exactly.. So sad I didnt get to cuddle him.. hee. nvm.. Next week I'll buy lots of food for him! Smelly mecy... I wonder whether he looks cuter now? but den again..not cute also nvm.. I'll still teng teng one!

Fat mecy and Keke.... SO CUTE!

Xmas is comin! Always love the festive atmosphere during this season! Thinking of going somewhere for a Xmas dinner or lunch.. dunno whether keke wants or not?but dunno where to go too....hmmph... thinking hard. Keke must drop hints to tell me whether he wants or not wor.. hee.

It's gonna be a dreadful week with 5 working days for both keke and me! haha. We're both lazy fats.. I only worked for 1 day last week and u only 2 days! what kind of life is that! haha. But no more le... it's gonna be a healthy us and no MORE MCs!

Downloaded a couple of songs today wor! so happie!!! haha. sometimes I think I'm crazy. I get really happie when I download songs that I like. =)

Miss U wor... fat Keke.

My maro is in pain..

2008-12-13T02:46:00.003+11:00

Maro is down with some weird food poisoning and is extremely sick as i am typing this post. My heart aches to see her like that.. if only i can transfer her pain to myself. I hate the bloody hawker who cooked the food that gave her food poisoning.. i also hate the doctor who gave her medicine that did nothing for her and i also hate myself for being unable to alleviate the pain she is going through. My little maro has a low pain threshold but this time round i can see she is really in great pain. I kept asking her to sleep because only while sleeping she will not feel so much pain.. Let's hope my baby will be well tmr.. i wanna see a healthy baby. Lastly, baby u know nothing will ever happen to u one.. i will always be looking after u. Love u always...

I'm a lazy fat..

2008-11-25T01:34:00.003+11:00

I never blog!!! gonna be scolded by Keke.. hee will do it soon okie?

for NOw... just wanna add to ur last blog!

OUR FUTURE HOME:

NG YAN YEE!!!! START SAVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! START SAVING!

Punggol Breeze.. Our Home

2008-11-17T02:51:00.002+11:00

Ok i know its not really our home yet but at least now we got something to look forward to! It may not be the perfect home cos its not on the 17th floor but at least we are getting the bay window!! something that my little maro wanted so badly! Anything that maro wants is good enough for me.. because i only wanna see her happy. I am not saying things like these to make her feel happy but because i truely meant what i said. I wish i was like Hiro Nakamura and can travel through time and space because i can't wait to be in year 2013! (Where we will get the keys to our flat) Anyway now that we are finally through the 1st step in setting up our family its time to start thinking about saving money.. Today at baby's house i was quite sad when she said we'll never be rich. Come to think about it, both of us are graduates holding professional jobs and yet we are living like church mice. I think the problem could be lying with me. I need to watch my spending.. dear thanks for always being there for me especially when i know u urself have not much money to spend.. I promise that once i start earning more than 3k i will splurge everything on u.. This weekend was a great weekend despite my baby pmsing.. i guess its just part and parcel of life.. so tired.. i shall go sleep now.. hope u enjoyed reading our blog wor! I know you would because whenever u blog i would also read it eagerly! Love u forever... Punggol Breeze our home!

I am the KING OF THE WORLD!!

2008-11-04T02:35:00.002+11:00

As the title may suggest, for the past 2 wks, i am feeling like a king! Yes... haha i have been living like a king cos my dear dear wanted me to feel like one! What does a king feels like.. hmmm it simply feels great!! Cos u can have your way but my poor baby had to suffer my tyrany bcos of me! hee.. if u are reading this my dear.. Thumbs up to u !! Its time i step down from my throne and bestow upon u the title of Queen! Life in KPMG is starting to pick up pace and i can finally understand what they mean by working till 4 am in the morning and its simply not enough! Time is certainly not enough when you are in the line of audit. LOL.. y are auditors so underpaid?! Anyway apart from the long hours there is nothing much to whine about b cos i still love my job! On the 12th this month, maro and i are going to choose our flat.. OMG.. its OUR flat!I am so looking forward to owning my own flat.. a place where i can finally say home sweet home! I love the times when we had to shop for our furniture in Sydney.. haha those were the times.. anyway i am going to sleep now.. eyes starting to close! Dear i love u more with each passing day...

Long weekend...

2008-10-30T00:48:00.009+11:00

I'm finally back blogging! hee.. it has been a superby long weekend for lots of people. Thanks to the indians for making it happen haha. But I'm on 2 days of leave so it's shiok for me.. but poor keke dun have leave wor..

Anyway... We went to Bintan last weekend! It was quite good la... hee. We finally kayak together after being together for so so long!! I love kayaking! hee.. maybe next time can organize a group to go kayaking together... kayak to those small small islands.. sounds good hor? Besides kayaking, we also got onto the banana boat. It was funny that Keke and his brother were in pain from the way we had to sit. haha. and they kept screaming in pain and wanted the thing to end. However, the crazy japanese girls sitting with us in front kept shouting to the banana man to go faster and longer! haha. A crazy bundle but fun-loving japanese group.

The very lovely beach at Nirwana

Besides that, we didnt really do much in Bintan le... went to eat seafood at this restaurant THE KELONG. haha. sounds like those football 'kelong kelong'. The food wasnt too bad.. but overpriced maybe? Or rather.. it wasnt cheap la..about the same as Singapore. Oh well.. Bintan is not cheap becoz of us Singaporeans! That's sick. Pity we didnt get to go for our massage... boohoo.. I want massage!!! keke got to learn and massage for me hee..

But very few our photo wor.. this is by far the only one!

We'll be back!!hee. Been listening to Jay's new album these few days! I love his songs!!!!!!!!!!!! How talented can a person be!??! It's amazing how he always come up with such good tunes accompanied by his very Fang Wen Shan. Love the mv for Shi Guang Ji.... so creativE! I wonder how many more good albums he will produce before he retires!

Currently playing: Jay's 9th album 魔杰座... oh I LOVE IT!

Looking forward....

2008-10-06T00:52:00.005+11:00

Yup, as promised, I got to blog tonight no matter what! hee..

Looking forward.... looking forward to what? Our Bintan trip of course!!! yeahz.. getting so excited about it since it's been about 4 months since our last travel trip.. which was Keke's graduation! Travelling always makes people so full of anticipation! I'm gonna go Chinatown to find out tomolo... hopefully they'll have good deals at the agencies... although I doubt so. hee. I wanna Kayak with Keke!!!! wanna nua with him and drip in the pool! Wanna do whatever that he wants to do! hee.. we'll have fun right...? our indulgence trip... looking forward immensely!

I just finished a 10km run or rather walk.. hee coz I think I run only about erm... 4km? Haiz.. sometimes I feel so lousy! Always get so breathless after at the most 3+ km. I hope I'm healthy? Maybe I should really see a doc.. I was so worried that I might just die on the spot when my hands started going numb... It's the scariest feeling one can have! nvm nvm.. I'll do better next time.. but maybe I should start aiming at completing 5km first. hee.

Happie times.. always passed so fast. Tomolo's the start of a dreadful and long week again! and When I say long week.. it's really long... such an events-packed week..

thur --> wedding dinner.. I HATE wedding dinners on weekday.. it's such a hassle! Next time we must have ours on a weekend okie?

fri --> Focus group meeting.. hopefully it doesnt end too late..

sat --> RT Chalet... doesnt seem to have very successful turnout.. but hope it'll be fun anyway! erm.. might have to give a miss for Keke's daddy's birthday... will have to see how wor..

So.. I guess I'll just nua from mon to wed! I love to nua! hee.. Starting to miss Keke le... Pinch u~!~~

6 years 1 month!!

2008-09-13T23:29:00.005+10:00

Happie anniversary to us again!!! haha. I still dunno how come we remember our anniversary by months instead of years. But nonetheless, it's how we do it and it shall remain the way it is, as always. Such a happy weekend spent again.... What did we do? Nothing much really.. but it's sweet. Caught 2 dancing movies in a row... not too bad.. watching dvd together once in a while is good. Save money and can cuddle cuddle in our little bed. The most satisfying thing is to help keke choose his ties!!! hee.. I hope I can always buy lots of shirts and ties for keke to wear.. So that he doesnt feel inadequate or something. It may sound a bit materialistic. Still the working world judges by a person's outfit and appearance. So, it's always good to wear nicely and carry some form of branded goods to elevate ur status, as long as one dont get too obsess with it. Keke agree with me?

Very long never blog le wor... been busy lately.. Okie I shall promise to make it a point to blog at least once a week! Attended Shuhui's wedding as a Jie mei!! It's quite fun actually.. to see ur fren getting married and being able to help in their wedding. I hope she'll really be happie from now on. We got a $88.88 gatecrash angbao. That's like the sickest amount possible. Like I said a lot of times... That guy clearly has something against Shuhui's frenz. Okie.. shall not go into that before I start getting all angry again. Spent quite a fair bit on her wedding... but hmmph.. at least I spent it and not felt so painful coz she's a good fren! I hope next time for my wedding.. I'll be surrounded by all my good frenz too!

Went jogging with eileen after so long... It's been 2 months since I jog le! My legs are aching like crazy now. Must make it a point to exercise regularly.. and I must think of a way to make Keke exercise too. It's all for our health! hee.. maybe must give some incentives to him to make him go run with me hor? hee hee.

I feel so happy and contented with life now. Life's good. I hope it always will be.

Listening to Electrico - Love in New Wave

Life at KPMG

2008-09-03T01:50:00.002+10:00

Yes i have finally kick started my career with KPMG!! To say that i am excited is an understatement simply because it has always been my dream to work at the big 4. Seriously the big 4 are not known as big 4 for nothing. The size and strength of their company are unparallel in the world of auditing. It is so so so different from my previous employment. Come to tink of it.. i really hated my previous job. Perhaps many people will eventually complain about the gruelling hours and endless amount of work. But i believe no pain no gain! That's y if i am going to succeed at KPMG, the 1st thing i would have to do is to stop procastinating like everyone else. Its a big task but i am sure if i put my heart to it i could probably do it! I am so tired but the main purpose of blogging tonight is to reassure my maro that everything remains unchanged. Yes there are more pple now.. more girls surrounding me and longer hours at work means lesser time with maro. However, none of these changes my love for maro. So baby if u are reading this.. pls remember how much i love u and we will be together forever!!! I go sleep le... so tiring.. haha oops i procastinated!

1st day of work...

2008-09-01T01:41:00.002+10:00

happie happie weekend!!! glad to be so happie.... I hope I'll always be happie!!! Keke is starting work tomolo at KPMG le! SO SO SO happie for him.... coz I know with his capabilities, he'll have a dazzling career! Keke will be fine on the 1st day wor!! Dun worry.. hee. I'm sure all the girls will love u. 1st day of work must share with me ur experience wor....Dun think so much of working.. It's only the start... try to enjoy ur orientation first. Keke will have no problem fitting in at all and coping with the work... I'm just worried that the toll of working long hours everyday will make u tired... Keke can do it!!! Jiayou!!!

我說妳行你就行, 我說你不行你就不行, 我說你不行你說妳行, 你還是不行!!

haha. 我說妳行!!!!

Love yeeyee always..

Currently listening to..... 活着 by 萧敬腾

6 Dollars yea give me 6 dollars!!

2008-08-25T02:43:00.002+10:00

haha nice picture of 6 塊錢!! i can see u really love him alot.. erm or is it her? Pooh is gay so i guess its a he? It was a splendid weekend and i am so happy my maro love it. I can see maro is trying so hard to change for mushy!! Tats y mushy must also learn to love maro more and dote on her more! its going to be a really busy weekend for me because i signed for the CPA classes which would be held on Sat and Sun this week. Long long lectures again.. haha seems like its back to old school days. Then i would be starting my new job on Monday!! OMG i am excited... but also skeptical at the same time. I wonder what would the working environment be like how would the people be like etc. I guess i dun need to worry so much ba since boat will go straight once it reaches the head of the bridge? LOL sounds weird right? so much for direct translation.. dear ice skating would be fun!! Dun u worry about falling down because i will be there to catch u. As for what u wanna learn i would recommend u to learn driving. Firstly, i believe if u dun learn it u would nvr ever learn it in the future. U are having doubts about learning because of what happened in Sydney but what i wanna tell u is dun let such a small thing set u back! I truely believe that maro can and will be able to drive one day!! So i feel learning driving and passing ur driving test will give ur confidence a boost! Looking forward to Friday.... ^_^

PS: Keep the posts coming wor!

6 塊錢

2008-08-24T02:25:00.004+10:00

It's been a really happy weekend!!! Met Keke last night to go Kallang for dinner.. It's good to have a car so that we can go to those places that we never been before.. but lots of traffic wor.. which is a really bad thing. We ate at Mushroom Pot all thanks to Keke's suggestion. hee. actually the food is okie la... just a bit too bland for Keke maybe... for me... erm.. it's lacking in something! I love Chinese food but this is just not good enough.. hee. Yup. Dian Xiao Er is so much better! Went to Leisure Park to have a look.. my first time there since it revamped into a hippy shopping mall! There's really nothing much there. Good thing is that, there's no crowd... quiet and peaceful.. which I like! And we got our very own LOVE TOY --> 6 塊錢 !!

Presenting..... 6 塊錢

Hee.. cute hor????? We won this from those KIAPING vending machine!! Yes.. after 6 attempts and hence the name 6 塊錢 . haha. Nice name hor??? We are good at giving cute nicknames!! We shall try our luck again next time and Kiap more to accompany 6 塊錢 . The night ended in a spectacular display of fireworks!!! Keke drove to Marina Bay area to catch the fireworks... it's such a wonderful display of colours, sparks and shimmers that filled the entire night sky. I must watch the show next year!!! For 2 years.. the tickets are always sold out when I called to book. I must and will call early to book next year's ticketS!

I'm deciding between learning driving or keyboard now. Which one should I take up leh?? Can only chose one...... becoz of budget as well as time. I'm too lazy to do both together hee. Learning driving seems more practical for future use la. But keyboard would be a dream come true! I must learn and become a really good keyboardist! Okie.. still pondering over it.. will decide soon though.

I hope Keke enjoyed this weekend very much too! yeahz! We're gonna try ice skating next week! Sounds fun...! but I'm scared of fallin! Will hurt a lot.. hee. But I cant wait for it! Hee. Keke must be keen becoz of the icy environment... hor?

怕黑周华健

2008-08-17T21:17:00.002+10:00

如果我说我忍住眼泪

如果我说我不会后悔

在这个夜深人静的时候请不要让我如此心碎

如果我说我忍住伤悲

如果我说我觉得好累

在这个夜深人静的时候我只愿能与你紧紧相依相偎

因为我会怕黑

因为我无法入睡

因为我心中疲惫

因为我厭倦风打雨吹

因为我会怕黑

因为我觉得意冷心灰

因为我隐着我的眼泪请

不要让这一切变成不对变

成不对

6 years 3 days

2008-08-16T23:33:00.003+10:00

Yeahz! We managed to spend our anniversary happily without quarrelling!! that's a big achievement wor! hee. Wah... Miss keke so much after 3 weeks of away-time. Keke never changed wor... although the tummy looks like it become smaller hee. Still as suarve as ever... Did I spell it wrongly? But anyway....we went to eat at Timbre, Keke's fav haunt now, I guess. Ate 2 horrible pizzas. haha. I am tian sa gu xing. Keke keep telling me the pizzas are good!!! but we ended up ordering the 2 worst pizzas I think. We drank together!! it's the first time we drank together wor!! but Erdinger is really strong wor... I think I really went a bit gong after 2 drinks.. We went up to mount faber.. wanted to try out the southern ridge with Keke.. but guess he's not really keen. hee. fat. Den we did our fav activity of going to changi beach!!!! Or rather.. my fav activity. I love to look at the planes and guess what airlines they were.. but Keke keep saying it's childish.. haha. Maybe I really am. Maybe we have grown apart.. 2 different worlds, 2 different people who complemented each other so well at the start.. only to realize those things that complemented turned out to be the differences that divided them. Chim hor? haha. I dun even really understand what I'm saying..

Anyway... It was a happy day and I'll always remember the 6 years, the 6th year anniversary that we shared. It's a hibernating weekend!! Actually I love staying home.. he dun need to spend $. hee. But the bad side is.. spending too much time @ home makes me miss Keke so much. I guess I'm greedy.. after seeing him on wed makes me want to see him more. But I know it's not possible.. we need time off, to think it through, to make it easier in future if we ended up not together. I kept being reminded of the old times where keke would buy things to my place coz he's worried that I dun have things to eat... the Keke who loved me so much and doted on me like a princess.. sweet fond memories. And I kept thinking of the times we spent nuaing at home.. watching 1 litre of tears and crying together. haha. hopefully we'll be able to watch 法證先鋒 2 together. I spent the whole 2 days trying to finish part 1. hee.. hopefully i'll finish it soon.

I woke up pretty earlier today to catch 超级星光大道3 ! My fav 徐佳瑩 won!!! She's really really good.. and she's the main reason why I'm so hooked to this show. I love the way she sings.. Singing right into ur heart through her sincerity..I still dunno how to insert the youtube video clip. So here's the link...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DHytFgL2trk&feature=PlayList&p=E8A940058CB1EC75&index=13

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12r0MDGwATc&feature=PlayList&p=E8A940058CB1EC75&index=7

I anticipated her 失落沙洲 so much and I think she sang really well..! I hope keke likes them too... Sometimes watching this kind of contest makes me really envious of these people. They have the courage to participate and the talent that made them shine.. Hee. I wished I am talented, smart, rich and pretty too!! I wish I can sing too!!maybe I should go and pick up singing or some keyboard lessons... my new focus in life.... I must get started.

6 yrs le...

2008-08-13T01:09:00.002+10:00

In an hour's time it would be our 6th yr anniversary. Tmr we are going to be meeting for the first time in like 3 wks? I hope its going to be a happy meeting although i realise we always quarrel on our anniversary. Hopefully tmr would be different though. Wat does 6 yrs mean to anyone? Is it a long period of time? I would have to say its a long time in relationships. 6 yrs is a test for every couple which have not gotten married. Maro and i have been through so much that the only thing left for us to do is to get married. However, in recent times i am the one that is backing off from it. Marriage is a life long committment and i really do not wish to ruin maro's future should i decide to separate after marriage. I am looking forward to our meeting tmr but at the same time skeptical about it. Pls just let me be happy for once tmr.. i have been feeling unhappy in recent times. If u are reading this dear i wanna wish us both a happy 6 yr anniversary..

5 more days...

2008-08-08T02:13:00.002+10:00

Yup 5 more days to our 6 yr anniversary. Its such a long time 6 yrs. I remember how i always use to tell maro that 6 yrs is not enough.. i want 6 yrs 6 decades 6 centuries and 6 lifetimes. Thinking back now i realise promises are really empty if u dun honour it. So on the 13th this month, i am going to pretend nothing happen and really enjoy myself with my maro. Its the very least that she deserves. Yes we shall go eat lasi nemak ( the way u love to spell it even though i always tell u its nasi lemak) at Changi. Then go to our favourite beach... i remember the 1st time when we got together was when i sang tat song to u. Haha.. so long le right? I really wish eventually everything will turn out fine for the both of us. In the meantime, pls take care of yourself k?

With love, Mushy aka.Keke

Imeem sux!

2008-08-07T23:48:00.005+10:00

Bowl... I cant seem to change the song already!!! the imeem webbie doesnt seem to work! How? Ops.. our blog is stuck with this sad song.. I'll try again until it can be changed okie! Next week is our 6 years anniversary le... wah. 6 years le. erm.. Separation still considered together hor? If not, out anniversary will have to be postponed le! hee. erm.. I dun ask for more.. Can we just be happie that day and pretend nothing has happened before?? Back to the good old times.. I wish we can go eat lasi nemak though! I got strong craving for it!! and I promise to eat with my hands and not be a little guniang..

I wanted to change the song to this instead... the lyrics seems so applicable.

夜了为什么还不想睡

除了你我还在思念谁

我并不是害怕黑寂寞却喜欢把整个我包围

好想再重新和你爱一回

让伤心的回忆通通都给化成灰

曾对你说没爱无所谓

其实自己脆弱不知道应怎么面对 oh...

故意在街上给冷风吹

等著你来我温暖我心扉

终于也是掉下眼泪爱情不知不觉的不翼而飞

请你永远都把我麻醉

那不用醒后日日夜夜为你心碎

你的爱曾经是绝对

我一辈子都会为我的愚昧而后悔 oh...

The lyrics look familiar?? I was mesmerized by u when u sang it... =) Our love is forever?

Another sleepless night...

2008-08-07T05:44:00.002+10:00

Yup its another sleepless night for me.. i guess whenever i make my maro upset it becomes that way. Wat an irony.. i really hate myself.. hate myself so much... I HATE MYSELF!!!! I wish i could stop making maro upset.. someone pls tell me wat i should do.. sigh...

Unforgivable Sinner..

2008-08-06T02:52:00.003+10:00

Yes i am an unforgivable sinner.. Despite the fact you told me its unavoidable i still believe its unforgivable. Recently i have caused my only love to be in so much pain. Pain which i believe is more than 1 can take. Call me selfish, call me a bastard because i truely believe it takes one to do such a thing to his only love. I feel i could be under going a depression really soon because i hardly get a good night sleep these days. I realise i am demanding alot from maro and perhaps to her its really impossible. I am just asking for the impossible and trying to find some bones in the egg? Sorry for the direct translation... its been some time since i have blogged.. 1 of the reason is maro has taken over the blog! She usurped our blog!! After much pleading she finally lets me blog.. hee.. dear tonite i wanted so much to be at ur house! To watch sun rise with you.. but i know your work is important and i do not want you to give your senior a bad impression cos of a sinner like me. That is why i chose not to go and lie to u that i rather stay at home! Forgive me.. i know i am selfish because all i tink about is myself. I agree with your blog entry that you must really learn to say no.. but hopefully never say no to me. All i feel right now is emptiness within me.... I would never learn the true meaning of love had i not met u..

PS: U promise to change the song!! always making me cry when i hear tat song..

HolidayS!!! for mummy and keke..

2008-08-06T01:23:00.003+10:00

Yeahz! Keke finally stopped working le.. feel so glad that he's leaving the low-pay job with disgusting boss! I hope he takes this month to really recuperate and get prepared for his future job.. which promises to be even busier! hee. But least u'll have sufficient $ to spend and u r going into a profession! Same goes for mummy... she's off to japan le! I guess she really deserves the overseas trips. She worked so hard all her life.. and til now... I still cant provide for her trip.. I feel really guilty. But there's nothin I can do. Wrong path in my career choice... how to switch now?? Tough question..

It's gonna be a busier weekend for me...which is a good thing really.. takes my mind off unhappy stuff and being occupied with something is at least better than staring into space and just letting ur tears flow uncontrollably. hee. But the irony is that.. i'll be busy with 2 weddings...helping out that is. Such joyous occassions.. will it influence me to become happier? Or will it only deepen my sorrows? *troubled* Anyway.. I'm really happie to be able to help out with other people's wedding! Even though it burns a hole in my pocket! I'm gonna be Phoebe's jiemei... But somehow.. I feel weird coz I dun feel THAT close to her. I always thought jiemei is a 'strictly-for-your-closest-frenz-ever' thing. Didnt really feel like doing it... but cant bring myself to say 'NO'. I must really learn to say "NO", learn to be nicer to myself.

It's my 2nd week in planning already! I must say I'm finding it pretty good. It's at least less tiring than the treatment unit.. but all I have for company is the computer! Trying to fuse the CT and MRI images... and I must say it's not fun at all! At least I got to do some real plans and.. I feel that Loyce really likes me now becoz I helped her to do her statistics! wahaha. okie la. I felt pissed at her for making me do a sideline job. But at least now I hope she'll treat me nicer..

Just got a call for Keke... He said he decided already.. how unexpected and shockingly.. tears flowed uncontrollably again. Should I believe in him?

1st day of official separation..

2008-08-03T16:34:00.004+10:00

Yup! Today is the official separation for us! We had a big row yest night again.. hee. Not unexpected right? I'm afraid I'll be having a nervous breakdown soon le. Yup maybe how I behave may seem as a total contrast to what I told you on wed.. when I persuaded u to stay on and give it another go. Maybe. But the more I think about it, the more that I realize I cant make u stay. I wanted to not think about it..but I cant. I guess the bad thing is I have too much time. Yes.. I dun have to do OT, my life is so stable and the bad thing is, how many times can my frenz accompany me.. everyday? I do envy u that u can meet up with ur frenz everyday maybe to take some free time off. But, yup u are busy at work too.. which is really a good thing now coz it takes ur mind off everything!

U realize that I wrote from a first person account today? hee. the only 2 people who reads this blog would be u and me ba. So yes.. I'm talking to u directly! 只有接納不完美才能有完美. When love first begins.. it's really blind. U only see the very best of the person. But as time passes.. the flaws starts to finally appear even though.. it might have been there for ages.. just to go unnoticed becoz of love. When a realtionship nears the end... the flaws magnify and becomes everything! who doesnt have flaws? Everyone has.. yup. It only becomes an issue when the vision of the flaws surpasses everything else.

I really meant what I said on wed, that I'm waiting to wait and give u the time that u need to sort out your thoughts.. but on deeper thoughts, I wonder even if eventually we do get back together.. will the events that are happening now forever be on the back of my mind. Will the scar u gave me ever recover??? It's a question that I have been asking myself constantly these few days. Will I recover from it? I'm so hurt that I really think maybe I cant heal. So that's why I was particularly elated to hear ur call yest. I dunno how to handle it anymore... So we just stick to smses okie??? pls? But I doubt u will want to msg me lah.... U r probably angry at me now at what I did yest and it only reconfirms ur stand that I'm not the girl for u. But nvm.. i'll still msg u.. I really cant foresee what the future holds for us both. But I love u very much.. very very much. Thank you for coming into my life and making me a happier person. Thank you for balancing my life and completing, complementing me in so many ways that I thought we are like a set of lock and key.

Today is a quiet day as usual... didnt go jogging as eileen fell ill. But I guess I dun feel like stepping out of the house too ba. Nowadays.. when I'm alone, I'll feel really alone.. like the whole world has abandon me. hee. Constantly looking at my hp.. perhaps hoping for msges from u.. but receiving none. Maybe I will consider not carrying a hp soon hee. I watched my 超级星光大道 as usual.. are u still watching it without me? I shouldnt think u r.. so I wanna show u this clip!! Xu Jia Ying is really good wor! She sang our idol's song!!! JieLun's 青花瓷, u and ur zhong guo feng hee....but it was superby.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=106nPuAC3j8

Hmmph.. I dunno how to put the clip in the blog leh. How come other people can?!! I ben ben....

ah.. come to think of it.. It's been about 6 months since we watched Jay's concert le!!! Cant wait for his next one... wonder whether we'll be watching it together hor?? Or can we make it a promise to watch it the next time he comes for concert no matter what becomes of us? hee.. 1 thing that never changed is that we still both like Jay a lot! hor?

Current repeat 1 song --> 眼泪笑了刘力扬 =)

比想象中更痛你真的没回头

我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走都积在我心中

我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过

谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了谁还想哭呢

再勇敢地站着找回光和热

面对你的时候我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客

因为路有些曲折

是美的

The lyrics are good...

15 days short...

2008-07-29T23:16:00.005+10:00

Today is the 10th days since the start of our crisis. 10 days sounds like a really short time... but it felt like eternity. I have no idea how I manage to survive these 10 days.. hee, I guess by sleeping away most of it. Sleeping is the only time when I dont have any thoughts and emotions.

Happie to hear Keke's voice again.. becoz I really missed him and his voice. Perhaps both of us dunno how to get over this crisis.. or rather.. we would succumb to it eventually... The pain will be tremendously if we ended up not being together for the rest of our lifes. I realized that it doesnt take much for 2 people to get together.. LOVE is all you need. But for 2 to part.. even though the LOVE may be there.. somehow things have changed...

Things have changed in a way that I didnt expected at all... perhaps I'm not sensitive to keke. Perhaps, I'm just slow and stupid... But I keep wondering whether there's something that Keke is hiding... maybe he had a change of heart.. maybe he really got so tired of me... I wished I could read his mind and know the truth.. instead of having to guess whether what he said about everything being routine is the TRUTH.

I have been crying so much since 10 days ago... that I really want to stop crying. Tears just flow uncontrollably!!! I'm so lost and helpless... I wish I can turn back time!!!!!My heart aches to the point where I myself am afright that I might just die... I sure Keke might have experienced that kind of pain too. i'm not a strong person. I'm not a happie person too.. I think I need a real long time to get out of this depression. Or will I?? My happie fruit has gone away......

The blog dated 7.7.08 states 'Looking into the Future..." What a difference 3 weeks make huh? Perhaps the future only lasted 3 weeks. That's our future. Looking back at the blog just make me wonder.. what happened to my Keke?? My xiao Dai Tou Har??? Mushy.....Where are u??? We still have so much things to do together... The stark contrast with what is going on in our relationship perplexes me so much!! Can someone really changed so much over such a short time?? Either that.. or every single word written in the blog is a front. Written for an audience and not from his heart...

Help me!!! Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm in so much pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dun want to give up... It's not a matter of time... I could give it up after 6 years if I can say I'm truly unhappie!! But I cant.. I love my Keke so much.. in so many ways.. but perhaps not in the ways that he might want. If he's really happie if I let go... I'll let go.... But it takes courage... can wait for the day I summonned all my courage to do it???

My fav pic from Keke's Grad trip..

2008-07-25T01:50:00.002+10:00

傻傻两个人　笑的多甜

Looking into the Future..

2008-07-07T23:48:00.002+10:00

Its been such a long time since anyone of us typed an entry in this blog. Hee guess we both are getting lazy huh? I shall start the ball rolling because i know my cute dai tou har would love to see a new entry if she ever visits our blog. Looking back at my graduation trip, i would have to say its going to become a memory that i would treasure always. Its everything that me and maro shared.. from the first time when we just reached sydney and managed to find our little xiao jia at ashfield till the time we were staying at Mascot. Then my cute maro came back for her grad trip and then it was my turn. Coming August would be our 6 yrs anniversary. I am still thinking of what i can do for this lovely lady of mine. I am sure i could come up with something to make her feel like a princess once again. Oh back to my graduation trip, it was bad in some ways but good mostly. The bad parts were of course the parents part. I know how hard it is for parents to save and scrimp just so their children could get the best. I truely appreciate that.. but i would appreciate it even more if my mum didn't count her pennies during my grad trip. I guess that would not be possible since she's such a thrifty woman. Oh well.. i can only say i am so glad my maro was with me during the whole time. Love her for it.. Ok back to reality. I am joining KPMG in Sept. This would be a major step for me in my career. I know its going to be tough i know i am going to be so tired from the work but somehow i am looking forward to it. The only worry i have is i may not be able to spend enough time with my maro. Dear if u are reading this i want u to know you will always be my first priority and if time permits i will always spend it with u. So never feel that i have stopped loving u k? We still have so much things to do together... i still wanna bring u to many places.. As for now i would like to thank u for loving me so much.. Hope to see ur blog wor! dun be lazy!!

5 yrs 8 months or 68 months!

2008-04-14T04:13:00.002+10:00

Its almost 2.30 am in the morning and i am supposed to go and work in another 5 hours time. I know i should be sleeping instead of blogging now. But i wanted so badly to blog b cos i feel i needed to do something for my special one. As she is soundly asleep now, i am reminscing all the wonderful times with her. Times with my special one is of course... special.. haha! i hope my maro is not dishearten by the fact that her mushy did not do anything special for her. Its not because that after 68 months that my love for her has faltered or faded with time. If its anything else, i am only going to love her more and more. Not one day goes by that i am still feeling lucky to have met maro. Ever since she came into my life, my whole world just changed. She's the only one that would ever occupy such an important role in my life. Forever is such a big word to use but when it is used in her presence it just seems so small. I guess maro and me have came to a new stage of our life. I want so badly to be able to see her 25 hours a day if there is. Dear, when u read this entry i hope u know that i do love you very much. I also know that you love me alot alot alot.. more than words can describe. kakaka.. our love seems to be infaillable. Even so, we should never ever take each other for granted because we mean too much to each other to do so. The night is getting late but all i have in my mind right now is to give the best to you.. i really hope to be able to do it in the near future.. Before i proceed to bed, i want you to know that you have given the happiest 68 months of my life to me. I thank you so much and wish that everyday with you would always be a happy one.. I love you baby..

Our own London Eye!!!

2008-03-02T16:38:00.008+11:00

1st March, the official opening of our Singapore Flyer!!! I have actually booked tickets way in advanced! It's to surprise keke. Cam-whoring as usual! hee

A picture speaks a thousand words. Well, u have to really be in the flyer once in ur life to experience the magnificent view from above! No amount of words can describe it. Although it would have been so romantic to have the whole capsule to urself! I really thought the Flyer was a brillant construction and that the government seems to have everything planned to prepare us for the next global recession. Despite the fact that we are really PAP-ing, pay and paying, we really have a government that has foresight.

I told keke that I would take the flyer once in my life. I take back my word now. I probably would wanna try taking it once more at night where I can be closer to the stars! hee.

Tsk tsk... :Lazy mushy..

2008-02-27T03:43:00.003+11:00

Yup as the title suggests its lazy mushy.. haha. I should be ashamed of myself for managing to post like only 1 entry in 2 months? or was it 3? Anyway i shall make amendments for my laziness.. this is going to be a long long post.. or rather an interesting one. Recently i had a new member in my family! He's Mecy! Y is he called Mecy because i named him after Melvin, Elvin, Cheryl and my beloved maro aka Yan yee! I cant help but feels sad whenever my mum says she wants to sell my dog. I mean i know my mum likes the dog but then mecy would do stupid things like shitting around the house and eating his own poo..yes.. i wonder y dogs do that. I would have to come up with something or else he would be given to someone else very soon. Sigh.. i wish i have my own house at times like these. I'm going to post some pictures of my cute cute mecy up.. Just had my operation done and its like PAINFUL! Its good to be getting 1 wk of mc and resting at home but the pain just makes me feel that its not worth it at times..-.- . I hope i can recuperate in time for saturday..

Hee.. what makes saturday so special is because my maro booked us both for the launch of the Singapore Flyer! It would be so sad if i can't make it due to my stupid surgery. Resolution for the year.. i am going to try to lose weight.. that is like so hard to do.. i am going to get a flat with my maro! Lastly, i am hoping that maro and i would ROM ASAP! kaka.. but b4 that happens i want to surprise her of course.. hee.. just wait and see k?

lazy bums

2008-02-15T23:41:00.012+11:00

okie..... judging from the title, it's pretty obvious that I'm referring to us both!!! We haven updated the blog for close to 2 months!! oh god.. what have we been doing that we became so occupied to ignore our love blog? haha. Okie.. nvm I shall start recalling fond memories and penned them down.

Our 65 months anniversary on, 13 January 2008, was very much enjoyed by us both!!!! although people did say before things like 'wah u 2 celebrate by the months?' 'That's a lot of money' haha. I agree lah.. but I also dunno why and when we started to celebrate by the months, instead of just the real real 'anniversary'.

The day started with keke coming to pick me up at my place and buying my fav MAC for my breakfast. Guess what else he bought? We promised each other not to buy anything... but he ended up splurging on a SooKee necklace, a bouquet of 3 red roses and a hand-written card! ah.... told him not to buy already. See lah.. so broke now ah. But I was still very happy lah... immense love and pampering on me by him!

*I wish I have those big round and dreamy eyes!! I secretly think that I can qualify to be a mei nu if I have big and round eyes! haha* Anyway, I like the pic on the right coz there's the vague drawing of us in the backdrop!!! haha...now and then.

What follows is our first time at GV Gold ClasS!! erm.. actually a bit ex for that I think. For the same movie, U pay 30 bucks per ticket.... which can buy 3 weekend tickets alreadY! But okie.. it's a once in a lifetime experience. No more next time already. We watched Le Grand Chef.. a Korean movie which turned out to be pleasantly nice... erm.. very pedictable plot but nonetheless still enjoyable.

I thought the Gold Class was quite a waste of resources... coz it's under utilized and the price of wine there is skyhigh!!! even the food was quite limited and expensive. Who in the world would want to eat there when there are so many yummy and much more famous restaurants in the mall! But other than that, I enjoyed the experience.. I love the provision of a blanket!!!! coz i forgot to buy my cardigan and I'm always freezing in the cinemas.

The very eventful day ended with a buffet dinner at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel! erm..... It's a pity that I wasnt too impressed lah.. haha. coz I thought the selection was too limited despite hearing rave reviews by friends before. I guess 'good' buffets, as recommended by people nowadays, revolve around good servings of oysters and sashimi. All of which I dun take lah.. hee. But keke thought it was good though.

Happie 65 months anniversary to US!

2007-12-26T01:13:00.000+11:00

omg.. 60% of Andy Lau!

2007-12-26T01:10:00.000+11:00

Xmas in SG

2007-12-25T19:36:00.000+11:00

I am so glad to be spending Xmas in Singapore this year with my ke ai.. I just realise its been a looooonnnnnngggg time since little yuan blogged. At least i know my baby has been busy blogging and updating our Mushymaro blog. We had a real quarrel before christmas.. I realise that we will often get into fights like this once in a long time. Not that i really wish it would happen but its really quite inevitable. I would have to say that this quarrel arose mainly because of me. If you are reading this dear you will realise Keke will admit his mistakes when he feels its his fault. Sorry that i haven't been spending as much time with u as u would want. Things that i have been doing for u has also fall short of the high standards that i used to set. For all of the above i want my dear maro to know i am sorry k? Today is rest day for both of us.. hee just nuaing at home and keep our families company. Dear ah.. u have to understand its not that i dunwan to meet u. But its because we live so far apart.. and the only most feasible way of meeting you would be thru cab!! Anyway ur ah fat working hard for our future le ok? then we can get our little cosy house and be together forever.. Hopefully u will read this blog and cheer up a little bit.. Mushymaro 4ever

2007-12-24T01:24:00.000+11:00

heart broken at 10.23pm

64 Months!!

2007-12-22T14:19:00.000+11:00

Noti keke never update our blog... but nvm I know he's tired from work now so I shall forgive him! hee.

Time past so fast! it's nearly the end of this year already... without much realization, I have actually worked for a year already. oh my. and I haven started saving at all! This is really bad. haha.. I really think it's so hard to even save up a bit. But I promise to try hardeR!!! coz the worse thing on earth is not having enough $ and being in a whole pile of debts. So happie at least there's a month's bonus this month! Though it may not be much, at least it helps me to clear some debts while let me have a bit of cash to myself. hee at least my bank balance doesnt fall before $500! wahaha. Ah... adulthood is so not fun!

Here's some photos taken on our 64 months anniversary!! We ate at New york New york.. the first time both os us ate there. Though we didnt do much expect for eating .. haha our fav activity... but it was still sweet. I'm just happie to be able to see him on our anniversary!!!

Haha... xiao yuan looks as round and cute as the burger hor?? I like!!!!

And we ended the day with this...aawwww... SWEET!!

It's such a shiok week to be on leave thur and fri!!! went to watch golden compass on fri with jeannie and company... aRgH. so sad.. I actually fell asleep in the middle of the show.. And it';s really sleeping!! I dun even recall a single memory of the middle part of the show! haiZ... too tired le hee.

ZzzzzZZZzzZZZZzzzz

Nice weekend...again!

2007-11-26T23:26:00.000+11:00

Hee. My keke is finally back from sydney!!!! Yippie! We spent last week at his house doing our fav things... mahjonging and playing his fav game audition! It's so good to be able to pinch his fat fat cheeks again! even though he has slimmed down considerably.

The next weekend was followed by another of our fav activity.... KTV!!!! omg. we sang from 7pm to 2am.... that's a total of 7 hours.. on average of 2.33hours per person. I think that was a record breaking number of hours for us. It's good to be spending time with my one and only darling and my closest fren! Besides singing... YT and I couldnt help but being at our natural best... photo taking!!!!!!!!!!

New nickname: 阿霉 with her new haircut... so cute!

I'm really grateful that I met my Keke for he's the one and only person who truly understands me and is always there for me when I need him! Hee.. I thank him for helping me to change my shower stand, going to NTUC with me to buy groceries, accompanying me to ah ma's house and buying dinner for me when it's raining out there. Together forever okiE?

So glad I'm on MC today. hee finally got to rest, get to take an afternoon nap, sort out my itunes, read the papers, bascially just nua-ing. I'll probably get to sit down and read some journals later... finally getting started and serious on the project that Jolin, BBm and I wanna do!! I really hope to contribute something to the department.... becoz I dun want people to think that I'm a 'scholar' who is really nothing much. I think the bad thing of being on a scholarship is that.. U cannot be ordinary. If not, people will be talking behind u.

Watching the news on the dragon boat accident on tv now.. Life's really unpredictable.. hearing the news about Yj's brother passing away is another shocking news. I still vaguely remembers going to yujun's house when she first moved to rivervale... wah.. that was so long ago.. and I vaguely remember her brother who was still a cute little brother in primary sch. Cant imagine the pain she and her family must be experiencing now. Cant imagine it.

Live today as if tomorrow will never come ^_^

Poor maro..

2007-11-06T14:55:00.000+11:00

Sorry my dear maro... only managed to read our blog today.. was busy studying on sunday cos of the stupid exam. Then on monday was so tired that i slept at 8pm. Hee at least your keke appreciates your effort for updating our blog blog! Maro is finally being active le.. but mushy understands you have to work and when the weekend comes u want to have time to do your own stuff! but baby remember k? This is OUR blog.. hee so you are actually doing things for yourself too.. I changed the song again leh.. hope you don't mind cos this song i am sure you will like it.. our new favourite song! I think i am very lucky leh! cos as a guy i can sing all Jay's song.. such a talented and gifted singer hor? Cant wait to go back and also can't wait to go see Jay's concert.. this is going to be so good. Hee.. watching the person i admire most with the person i love most in my life! Life's good.. i wanna earn more $$$ so baby can shop till she drops! Maro is so busy this week.. but i still hope you will take good care of yourself k? Love you till the end of time...

PMSing

2007-11-04T03:54:00.001+11:00

Hee I just changed the song to Lu Xiao Yu, a track from the Secret OST. Isnt it nice?? How I wish I know how to play the piano den I can play for keke to hear! Think it's still possible to learn piano now?? hee.. Just watched the Secret movie this morning when I woked up. It's weird that how I still enjoy it so much despite watching it before. It's really a fanatastic show! And I finally concluded that the 2 different time zones were not happening simultanteously. hee Maybe the next time I watch it with keke again, I would be able to analyze the show better.

I haven had a good weekend I guess.. I am easily irritatable today over the slightest thing which isnt good lah.. coz I seem to vent it out on my brother and mum. Haha keke was spared coz he got it from me yest already! Feeling unappreciated by my family and unhappy probably due to the fact that I haven got much $ left. haiz. Who doesnt want to save up??? How I wish I could even save 100 bucks a month but somehow, it's impossible.

Amount debited upon 25 Oct is as below:
800 --> mum
100 --> ah ma
100 --> ah lan auntie
300 --> loan
179 --> electricity bill

That leaves around 850 for myself!!! Still need to pay off credit card bill?? Meaning... there's no money left for me! and does it mean I dun have to eat, travel and go out at all? Sometimes I wish I dun have some much liabilities and could be like my frenz who can spend and pamper themselves. But den again... this would all be worth it if u are appreciated! Feeling unappreciated can be the worst feeling in the world! Today my mum still come to like 'confront' me whether I transfered money to her for this month already or not. Y does she not do it to my bro every month leh?? God is fair but I guess life is never fair...

Okie enough of complaining. hee At least I did some spending on myself this 2 weeks. But ops.. the next CC bill that comes will be shocking! I got a bag for myself from topshop when I went shopping with YT and a top from mango! and also a pair of shoes from Charles and Keith! Not too much to pamper myself once in a while hor??

12 more days before yuan yuan comes back.... hee. time to squeeze in my little bed! with the aura in my room, it's going to be good sleep nights everyday!!! hee miss u.. cant wait wor!

going to orh orh le... ZzzzZzzzZzzz

Being appreciated...

2007-11-03T03:57:00.000+11:00

I am sure everyone loves to feel appreciated.. especially by their close ones. Its not that we do things for the sake of feeling appreciated. But its a bonus if what you are doing is being appreciated. Had a really long chat on the phone with my Maro yesterday night.. The first half of our conversation was wasted on quarrelling.. i guess its part and parcel that every couple get into quarrels at some time or other. Before i continue i wish to tell my maro that i appreciate her alot.. from the day she came into my life to all the little and big things that she has done and is still doing for me.. Baby whenever you are feeling down and that things are not going your way there is always me.. i will never abandon you unless you abandon me.. u should be sleeping by now.. let us both keep our fingers crossed that things will turn out fine for us k? Love u always...

Sigh... another quarrel..

2007-11-02T01:47:00.000+11:00

Maybe its me or maybe its the both of us but i think mainly its still me. We had another quarrel yesterday. Are the frequencies getting abit too much or is it normal. I realise that we would always quarrel closer to the date of me going back. Is it a curse or is it just me. I believe its me again. My maro aka ke ai is the one person i love most in my life.. therefore i really respect her decisions and opinions but i guess she thinks otherwise. I admit that at times i do not really set my priorities right. Yes.. that is true but i assure you my dearest Ke ai that i will prove to you that i can be the best BF the best Husband and the Best Father.. all i need from you is to have faith. Try not to holler or outburst at me whenever things does not go according to plan. Because not only would you be feeling upset i would too. If i were to flare up at you then things would turn ugly right? I promise you to change for the better and i need you to be there for me to witness my change. I wonder if you would wait for my change... i love you.. can't wait to go back... =.=

Feeling.. sad

Another day...

2007-10-27T22:15:00.000+10:00

I was really tempted to delete the previous blog becoz it's so upset to read! but since keke said it's gonna be our memories, I decided to keep it in the end. This blog encompasses days of happiness as well as sadness.

As promised, I decided to blog today as it's finally my turn to contribute! hee. I'm not doing it just to please my keke but today is my rest day! After a long day of housework, fianlly have time to sit down and do things that I like! As days pass by... I realized my weeks are getting really routine and mandane le.. HOw??? Guess it's gonna change when ah fat comes back finally!! 21 more days!! I'm gonna go get 不能說的秘密's dvd and OST tomorrow! So can watch with keke when he's back as well as for my collection. I haven missed jay'z cd so far... except for his first album. Maybe I should go get it now as well? hmmph.. maybe not.. maybe next month ba hee. Should try to control my spending.

I'm gonna meet up with the Income people tomolo after so long.. hope it wont be awkward? I always feel that it's quite intimidating to meet up with people whom u haven met in so long.. coz u dunno whether u all still have common things to talk about, whether everyone has changed tremendously since the last meeting? It's a weird feeling but tomorrow is a good day to go out coz I'm gonna go Tampines!! hee perfect location since I am intending to get

1) contour pillow for my yuan yuan. It's on sale now! 50% off from seahorse!

2) cordless phone for my fat mum. so that she dun have to squat at that little corner when she's making phone calls.. so scard someday she might just fall-back while squatting down haha.

and lastly

3) Jay'z cd!!

I'm considering to go for pedicure tomorrow too.. hee. will see how it goes. Or maybe go a bit later just before keke comes back since he has got a toe fetish haha.

Spent sometime cleaning up my computer and I changed my wallpaper to ah dang!

Keke sent me this image.. cute hor??? Xiao Ding Dang's craze seems to be back now!!! yippie! I think I can consider it my fav character, since I like it when I was so much younger and i still like it so much now! and our kids 'ah dang' and maro are coming back from sydney soon to occupy my space in bed! Very soon I'll have no place to sleep in le.. hee

Keke.. this blog will keep u inform of what i'm doing until u comes back okie? although we are physically apart.. and u cant be with me through these days, life will still continue for us both with me missing u constantly! Too bad u coming back only on the 16 Nov, if not u can come with me for my cousin's wedding!

Okie to end off... I'm decided to include a 'What I'm listening to currently' thing hee. I just thought it'll be nice to let keke know what I'm listening to and hope that he'll enjoy the songs that I like.!

Song playing now: Mayday 最重要的小事

love u lots

Heartbroken...

2007-10-25T00:51:00.000+10:00

Yes that is what i am feeling as i type this blog out. I think i need to seriously

reconsider if i am matured enough for a relationship. I always thought that for a

relationship to work you just need to be nice to the other party and things will

always work out. But how true is this theory? Just like an empty bottle can only be

filled to a certain level.. too much and it just overflows. Similarly, when you

give too much you will end up feeling suffocated and feeling the need to get some

love back. As i type this post, i have this really heart wrenching feeling right now

and i am fighting back to keep my tears from flowing. Yes i know you hate me crying

but so what.. do you even care now? Whenever we get into an argument you just tend

to say the nastiest things to me. Maybe you don't realise because you are just too

caught up in the argument. I know perhaps i may not be good enough for you.. but i

know no one will ever love you more than me. You always jump to defense when i

question you if i love you. Your 1st response would be.. no.. but whenever we are

lovey dovey you seem to feel like the luckiest gal in the world. If that's the case

why is it when we quarrel and you feel i no longer love you? Or no longer nice to u

This is never the case be it now or in the future. I remember you tell me you

wanted to have a blog of our own. So i did one for you.. but today on the phone.

You seem to think its no big deal at all! Why is that the case again when a week

ago you told me you love it so much. Its not much i know.. but have you ever

thought of my effort and the amount of time i put in just to make you happy??

Then again you probably say this is not what you wanted.. i guess humans are fickle

On our anniversaries, i would write you cards because you love collecting them..

i am not saying its a big deal...BUT which guy would do it?? Although it is true

that everyone shows their love in a different way and so do you. You always telling

me that i am the one that would write cards and stuff.. BUT do you know i write it

because i LOVE u.. prior to meeting you i would never have done stuff like that.

NEVER! You say i hate interacting with your colleagues but have you ever spare a

thought for me? Your reason is that there would be no way to reject them if they

wanted to catch the concert with us together. SO.. i end up being the sacrificial

lamb?? Y? i dun understand.. i really thought you understand me. Do u remember when

i first met u? You didn't like to sing ktv at all.. in fact you would be too shy to

sing infront of strangers! So we always go to KTV together just the 2 of us..

when i already grew accustommed to just 2 of us.. U suddenly changed and want me

to accept your way. Its so unfair.. you keep telling me its just sitting together

what's the big deal?!? I wanted this to be OUR MEMORY not Everyone's memory. Tonite..

my heart cries out loud.. i feel alone because the only person that understands me is gone.

Just remember that whenever you are feeling down.. your happy fruit will always try his best

to brighten up your day. I may fail or even be sick of this role but its a role i would gladly play.

At this very moment i feel lonely... so lonely... Before you shout and holler at me next time.

Please think of all the happy times or the things i ever did for you.. it may not be much but

its everything i have got...

To blog for the sake of blogging...

2007-10-23T17:31:00.000+10:00

If ever that happens to anyone who is blogging. I would suggest that the person stop blogging. It defeats the whole purpose if u are just blogging simply for the sake of blogging. As for me... i am blogging because i wanna leave behind a trail of memories for maro and me. When we are like old and wanna reminsice our memories we can always come back here. I just found out from my maro that Jay Zhou is coming to Singapore for his concert!! OMG how exciting.. we have always wanted to go to his concert and now that he is coming it just seems so surreal.. hee. Our first time watching concert together and watching the singer/composer/director/actor/songwritter/genius.. the list goes on.. but basically watching the ONE person we most want to watch is something that is so hard to come by. Hopefully we will be able to get some seats.. going by his mad popularity in Singapore..Yesterday my dear dear was telling me how she wasn't enjoying her work due to some China guy at her work place. I dun mean to be mean or discriminate China pple since all of us originally or rather our ancestors were from China. But at times, it can be so frustrating that these 'Chinese' cant seem to click with us. Different culture different characters whatever you call it.. it just seems to me that there is this gap between us and those 'Chinese'. Anyone that is making my maro unhappy is making me unhappy.. being maro's fat little happy fruit.. i wish i can be by her during this time. Dun worry k? i coming back soon le.. to brighten up all ur weekends..nono to brighten up ur life! Let's all hope that this particular 'Chinese' stop pissing my maro off.. Exams are round the corner.. its time for me to start revising b4 i regret for the rest of my life. ^^v

Windstruck

2007-10-20T17:26:00.000+10:00

I changed the song on my blog to the theme song of windstruck. For those who have watched the famous korean hit show "My Sassy Girl", Windstruck is the sequel to it. Or was it prequel? Haha. All i remembered was watching the show with my maro and enjoying every bit of it. Thereafter i just went online to download this soundtrack. I just adore it...maro too right? heehee..I attended Shirley's graduation yesterday which was fun as there was such a huge group of us. Had fun taking photos and swatting flies. But at the same time i was thinking... i should be graduating today too.. the thought of it just fills me with melancholy. Nonetheless i am really happy for Shirley that she has so many of us to share her joy. I found out yesterday that not everyone is the same in a relationship? Everyone have their different expectations of their other 1/2..some high while others don't expect much. I guess i do have a certain level of expectation of maro.. but fear not.. u easily surpass what i expect of u. I hope i can live up to the level that you have of me too.. Days are flying really quickly and while i do enjoy my last semester in Sydney with my friends, there is nothing more i want then to go back to the place i call HOME. Till then.. i will keep on missing you..

Major major Blog revamp...

2007-10-18T18:12:00.000+10:00

I tink my maro is going to get a surprise when she sees this.. hee.. i did a major revamp on our blog. Its been some time since we had the old template.. i hope she likes the new outlook of our blog.. I spend like 2hrs++ to figure out everything.. from the song upload to ensuring that our photo fits just nicely..must give me credit k? I miss u so much.. remember i told you i love this song? the title is 不懂男人 but i want to say that i believe you fully understand me. After tonite its going to be less than 30 days till i be back in Singapore le. Excited ma? We got so many things we want to do together.. so many places we have yet to travel to.. i only know i want to spend the rest of my life holding your hand.. i hope my maro feels the same too.. going to take a break now.. so tired ah! Love you always..

Last piece of Assignment...

2007-10-16T22:09:00.000+10:00

I finally handed in my last piece of assignment in my Uni life.. i did not imagine the whole process to be such a tedious one. Haha. like my dear dear always say. quickly finish studying and stop wasting money! i also wish i can put my studying life behind me and move on to a new chapter of my life. Back to my essay.. i did it for 7 continuous hours non stop and finally managed to kill off the stubborn essay. Heehee.. hopefully i manage to do well for this last assignment la.. only 1 more week of school to go b4 STUVAC and the exams. Most importantly the day i go back and lie down on my maro's little bed. Today my maro and da ma go shopping.. hope she finds something she likes and 寵寵自己.. hee. our love is forever..

KeKe jiayou!!

2007-10-15T00:07:00.001+10:00

The one photo that ALWAYS put a smile on my face... my beloved cute KeKe!
Erm.. I know what I put up is nothing compared to urs but.. hee at least I made the effort hor?? I miss u!! Must study hard work hard and come back quickly wor... Everytime u lose the motivation to wokr hard, just think of me!

Love KeAi

62 months anniversary!!

2007-10-14T20:31:00.000+10:00

I know.. today is not exactly the actual day of our anniversary.. hee its belated by 1 day but i am so preoccupied by work that i can't find any time to blog this entry.. i hope my dear dear will understand k? hmm.. 62 months is a long time to some and its definitly a long time to me.. over this course of time i have learnt to treasure my relationship with my special one. My one and only maro.. i wish i could spend each and every anniversary with you but somehow we only manage to spend like 1/2 of our anniversaries together. I dunno is it fate that wants to put us through this test but if it is i am sure we did very well. 1 more month and i will be back in Singapore to start a new chapter of my life. I would be lying if i said i am not looking forward to it. But i know that regardless of how difficult life would be in the future, i am never alone and would have someone to face it together with me. Thanks my love for always being my pillar of support(sometimes nvr heehee)and standing by me all these years. I am sure there would be more happy chapters in our life waiting to be filled as time goes by. Words can no longer tell u how much i love u... u know how much i love u enough le.. hee.. >.< I hope u will always be happy with me.. 2gether 4 ever!

Neither Time nor Distance Can..

2007-10-10T17:31:00.000+10:00

Can what? can separate us.. nothing is going to separate me from my baby.. after all that we have been through i know our love is so strong it is going to take everything or rather nothing to break us up.. hee. The slide was a success and my little maro loves it so much.. i tink i will do another one up in the near future.. after my exams are over. My days in Sydney is going to be over soon.. to say i dun miss Sydney is a lie. But memories of my days in Sydney would be those that were with maro.. As for those without.. i dun really cherish to speak the truth. I am so looking forward to life in Singapore with u again.. Hang on there k? Love 4ever! When the going gets tough.. ur mushy will always be here for u k?

i love u dear...my one and only maro

2007-10-09T19:17:00.000+10:00

This entry is going to be short. The main focus is the slide that i made.. not sure if its going to work or not.. but going to try it nonetheless.. hee if it works there will be more to come.. All that i have done is just a fraction of my love for u .. my one and only baby yanyee.. >.<

Counting Down!!

2007-10-06T02:26:00.000+10:00

The title of my entry says it all.. i just cant wait to go back to Singapore. Friends, family and most importantly my maro.. its been exactly one month since my last post. Was feeling homesick or rather marosick all of a sudden. She should be in our orion at this time. Miss her so so much.. but i tink i just made her sad.. i know i am a big spender but i swear i will start saving when the time is ripe. Time being ripe means the prep for our marriage our future together. I hate quarrelling over money or the lack of it. Another 1 more month and i will be able to look forward to my new life.. enough of Australia! Back to Singapore.. dear i want to tell u that i cannot live my life without u and i know its mutual.. life is hard when u dun have me around but its the same for me. I wanna hold u in my arms and look u in ur eyes and never let u go.. haha.. mushy mushy!!! Sweet sweet post... hopefully we will be sweet sweet all the way till i go back Singapore.. and continue even when we are in Singapore.. muacks!

Internet At LAST!!!!

2007-09-06T02:02:00.000+10:00

Finally we have internet at BURWOOD!! OMG!! lol.. dear i finally can update our blog on a regular basis le.. i got so much things to talk to you abt but i know u are constantly tired due to work. BUT! i am your understanding keke wor.. hee so i shall use this blog to write out what i wanna say to u and u would be able to read it during ur free time.. its been more than 5 yrs since we got together yet it still feels like we just got together wor.. i simply can't get enough of u !! hee i hope u feel the same too.. starting from tmr i will blog regularly and upload our photos and hopefully figure out how to make this blog looks nicer! hee.. in case u are reading it or checking if i got update or not i wanna tell u i love u .. forever and ever!

From Mushy with lots of HUGS AND KISSES!!

2007-08-07T11:18:00.000+10:00

My KeKe,

you are always on my mind...

awaiting your return in nov to continue our fav activities!!!

Your KeAi

Leaving..

2007-08-07T07:39:00.001+10:00

As i am typing this entry out, my cute little maro is sleeping on my bed. She looks so cute as she is sleeping.. i would never trade my maro for any other women in this world. There is something so special about her that it just takes my heart away. Hee i hope my maro feels the same too when she sees her mushy sleeping. In less than 3 hours time i would be flying back to Sydney.. Sigh must say that i am actually feeling pretty depressed at this moment. If only maro was still awake.. hee but i guess i really cannot be so selfish.. my poor baby had to work the whole day and wake up at 5 am in the morning and enduring till 4 am in the morning just to keep me company. I feel that i must be one of the luckiest guy in the world.. There are times when i feel that she just has one of the worst temper in the world but yet there are also times when i feel she can be the nicest and sweetest girl too.. I know one should have expect to have the perfect gf but what i can only say is that both of us wants each other to become perfect for each other. Complementing each other in various ways to the extent that it becomes perfect. Enough of the melancholic stuff.. on Friday night we went to catch Jay's new movie "Secret" a.k.a Bu neng shuo de mi mi. Overall i would have to say that i rather enjoy the movie. In fact i wouldn't mind watching it for a second time. If time permits, i would actually have bought the tickets and brought my maro to watch it again. I know maro loves the movie. Dun worry k dear.. we will buy the DVD when its out and watch it over and over again. My dear is those very sentimental type of girls. Hee which is really good in a way because i know she will only love me more over time. Ok seems that i am starting to steer away from my topic. Back to the movie, thumbs up to Jay on his first ever self directed movie. I could already see a great director in the making. From the choosing of the cast to the writing of the script i really could not find much reasons to fault it at all. The fact that both me and maro were feeling tired that Friday night and yet we managed to sit through the whole movie without batting an eyelid goes to show how good it is. Critics may feel that i am a Jay fan and that's why all the positive comments. My response to this would be "Go be your own Judge, catch the movie yourself". I remember the last time i ever felt so down was when i had to leave my maro and go to United States to work. It was almost an exact replicate of that scenario. The only difference is that its Sydney instead of USA and to study instead of working. Its going to be tough to be away from my keai for 3 months. During this period of time i am going to try my best to get the 2 credits that i promised her. This time round i guess i am going to keep my promise. At least i am going to give it my best shot because it would be the best present i can give her for all her trust and patience in me. I am thankful that maro's mum is rather supportive too as she encourages me to finish up my studies so i could start my working life. I guess most in laws would be pretty disgusted that their daughter's bf is 25 and still studying. Before i end my post, i wanna comment on the new mp3 player that my dear dear bought for me. Its a white samsung 1 gb mp3 players with flashy blue led lights. Hee.. its really cool imo. What makes it even better is that its a steal at just $118. As usual the one person who loves me most in my life bought it without any second thoughts. At the same time she herself have to save and scrimp all because she wanted to get me this mp3 player. Sigh.. can't believe that as i type this sentence tears are actually falling down my face. I know my maro hates it when i cry.. hee but whenever i cry she also "xin luan" All my blogs are directed at and written for my one and only baobei YY. The reason why i am talking in a third person mode is cause i find it much easier to blog that way. Life in Sydney is going to be tough without you but i know both of us will be strong till the day mushy and maro, eitheror and neithernor reunites again. Lastly, sorry for not being able to spend your favourite National Day with you.. and also sorry for not being there when we reach our 5 year anniversary on the 13th this month. Time spent with you is never enough and i already know that i want you to be by my side as we walk down the aisles of time together. Missing you x 130802 times :)

Reflections

2007-07-16T17:35:00.000+10:00

This post is created especially for my dearest Maro.. Mushy has again let you down. I know u are very disappointed by the fact that i have to go back to Sydney to finish up my degree. I know you are not saying anything or showing any signs of disappointment because u love me too much to upset me any further. I know everything u are doing or have done is all for my sake. Yet i still let u down time and time again.. i hate myself for doing this. Baby, u know today has got to be the worst day of my life? The depression that i am suffering is so bad that it has reached a point whereby i am at a lost at what to do. All i wanna do is to hug you and be by your side. The though of being away from you for 1 more semester is killing me.. how i yearn to start our life together. I know i dun deserve such love from you but i hope you will wait for me. i have been refecting what have i done over the past 1/2 yr. The c0nclusion i reached is that i have been wasting my time. Sydney is no longer Sydney to me without you there. I may seem to have many frens accompanying me in Sydney but all i really want is for my maro to be beside me. The past few days at Sentosa were the most enjoyable few days of my life. I am serious.. words cannot describe how happy i felt. The times that we spend exploring the underwater world, letting those fishes nibble at our feet, watching those pink dolphins and enjoying the laser/pyrotechnic display at sounds by the sea are all experiences that i would relinquish all the time. In another 2 wks or lesser i know i most probably will be back in Sydney. My poor maro would then be back to life on her own again.. haiz.. all because ur mushy is a playful little boy. I also dunno what i did t o deserve you.. i only know i am a very lucky person. Despite your regular temper outbursts, you are the most perfect girlfriend a guy could ever have and i am really glad i met you. As i am typing this post, you are working hard at SGH. Dear, you really dunno how wrong things are going for me at the moment. In fact i also dunno what i can do to make things right anymore. All i am asking for now is that you have to be strong when i am not beside you.. at least for the nxt 1/2 year. My love for you will nvr change.. not over distance nor time. Je'Taime

Happy Days ahead..

2006-09-18T21:08:00.000+10:00

After a series of quarrels enough to break any couples, mushy and maro have just bounced back stronger than b4.. Apart from the occasional squabblings, things have been rather smooth sailing back at home. Perhaps maro have decided that she is too tired to quarrel! haha.. whatever it is.. i am just glad that things are back to normal. Deep down inside me, i know we are made for each other.. despite the huge difference in characters, we just complement each other so well. Maro have been really sweet to mushy.. in fact, i am sure i will not find another girl who will treat me 1/2 as well as my maro does. For that matter, i will also stick by her thru thick and thin.. We will be going to Melbourne in 4 days time.. Let's hope everything will be smooth sailing too.. Going to post lots of pictures when i come back..

Maro PS: Thanks for everything u done for me.. keke keai 4 ever!

People do change and so do relationships..

2006-09-13T22:31:00.000+10:00

Its been quite some time since i last blogged.. i being mushy.. =) Judging from my title its going to be a rather pessimistic blog today from me. I have been rather lazy which is the main reason for not blogging for such a long time. Today is Mushy and Maro's 49 months anniversary.. I would have loved to say that we had a wonderful day but sadly that was not to be the case. Had a massive quarrel with maro since yest.. it seems to me that nowadays we just cannot see eye to eye anymore. Has her expectations of me became so high that i am simply not good enough for her? At times i feel that she has become so demanding that i am suffocating.. haiz.. i thought that when 2 individuals are in love everything should be lovey and dovey? Things that we quarrel about nowadays tend to be rather serious stuff.. I wish that we can be like how we were when we first started out. As time passes people changes too.. and so does our relationship.. i have always perceived our relationship to be a rather strong one because of the fact that i know i will never give up on maro no matter what. But today as i am typing out this blog i feel a real pain in my heart.. because thoughts of giving up actually sprung to my mind. Deep down i know i love her as much as i used to be ... i know she dun feel it anymore.. perhaps i have to do something so out of the blue so that she can feel like a princess once more.. Love is about committment and staying true to yourself.. If the love is no longer there then the relationship is but just an empty shell... I am going to change the blog's song to a new song by Jay. It is also the song that my maro likes the most.. even though its not my favourite.. Afterall this blog is dedicated to her..

PS: If are reading this.. i want to tell u i still love u ..

4 yr Anniversary!

2006-08-15T01:09:00.000+10:00

Yes finally its here... mushy and maro's 4 yr anniversary blog. Its been a couple of days late cos mushy has been a playful boy. Reflecting back on the 4 yrs that mushy and maro was together, there are so many sweet memories that i dunno where to start from. Been trying to log in to blogger.com but dunno how come it takes such a long time to load. I guess my ISP has problems with certain websites. Even my archmage takes like ages to load. Anyway back to the main point. Yup its 4 yrs, 48 months, 1424 days, 34176 hours and xxxx seconds. You get the idea.. perhaps to other couples 4 years is not a lot. But this is the first 4 yr that either mushy or maro had in a relationship. Therefore its definitely something that they will cherish.. haha by they i am actually talking abt myself. Anyway, life has not always been lovey dovey for mushy and maro. There is always the up's and down's which i am sure every couple will go thru. However, the down's are really bad.. and nowadays i seem to notice a pattern with the down's. Haha.. i would pray for less of such if i could. Whenever mushy and maro are not quarrelling or squabbling or fighting or pulling each other hair out, they would be indulging either in a food fest, movie fest or casino fest... Sometimes i feel we just like to do a thing repeatedly till we get bored of it. Thinking back on the first day that we got together.. everything was so sweet. Hee.. i can still remember vividly all the things i did to woo maro's heart. Even though mushy does not look like wat he used to be, his feelings for maro has nvr changed. Not a single bit. Doubtful as she maybe, mushy's love for maro cannot be explained by words. I always thought that i am the one who knows maro best.. but at times when she gets angry i find that i will be a lost on how to coax her.. maybe i can try to hoax her? kakaka.. its never easy being a joker. i can't see many guys who knows how to humour their gf, at least not whenever he wants it. There is a theory i need to get across, when couples are in a quarrel, its virtually impossible to make the other party laugh. Firstly, when u are angry how is it possible to be happy and come up with something humourous? Secondly, you wouldn't want to even try it. Lastly, its just not possible. The past wkends have been great... tremendous even. i realise that quality supercedes quantity and i really treasure all the quality time that i have with my maro. The remaining 3-4 mths in Sydney would definitely be the time i treasure most since coming here. Nothing is forver or certain in this world. But at this moment in time i know i can say i will love maro forever even though forever sounds so long. You made my world a better place to live in.. Happy 4 yr anniversary my love.. =)

good days ahead

2006-08-12T00:45:00.000+10:00

Been a while since both keke and keai blogged. Especially the lazy keke.. hee. It's been a good week so far! well, except for the very swollen and sore and painful left eye of mine. Damn. I shall never touch my eyelid with my dirty and filthy hands again. Went to see an eye doctor today. I must say the healthcare system here is not very good! there's no non-emergency clinic at the hospital here.. and keke keep saying the GPs are not good! I think it's best that we just dont fall sick.

Very happie to be staying home today to watch all the DVDs! keke is in the mood for Underworld Evolution; hence the massive rental from blockbuster. Just finished watching MatchPoint by the chiobu Scarlet Johansson.. is that how it's spelled? Anyway... I thought it was a romance show... turned out to be 100% not a romance movie. But it was quite nice..just that the guy in the show is a total jerk. Scum. Scum is a great word to really describe, erm.. u know, disgusting guys. The next screening time is probably at 1.30am? hahaa. thanks to the noti keke who abandoned me for the games.

well.. guess wat! we went starcity on thur nite. What's new right? haaha. it's out little playground, although not one that we should really play in. We lost massive at the sicbo.. and I think we are cursed. erm.. either keke is or me. hahaa more likely the latter. coz when we reached there.. and I mean Once we reached there, there's like 6 times of triples that came up. What's the odds of a triple coming up? Let alone 6 timeS? Sick. But anyway.. we lost massive first but keke won back so much!! he's good. gutsy I guess. I stuck to my pokies most of the time! I think I'm addicted to pokies.. dont why.. I really think it is a game that's pretty boring and brainless. But still it's quite addictive.. where I just pray for Mr Cashman to appear. But I must say I had lots of luck on my 2nd try. I won over 100 bucks and fully covered my loss! thankgod.

Really enjoying my last semester here.. think it's the best semester I had so far in australia.. minus the fact that I hardly see anyone other than keke! It's been while since I saw karen the pig... But I guess everyone's pretty busy with their own lifes now. School is still the best! where everyone can just meet together in sch and go out after that. It's a good semester nonetheless where there is absolutely no worries.. at least til now.. that we are fianicial okie, we'll living well, nice little cosy home with everything.. including internet!!! hahaa. no more relying on the shitty default and dlink... we have our own ADSL2+! that should please keke the most for his gsme of dotas. NO lag ever again.

I really should get started on analysing my data. I just cant seem to get started. slacking like mad.. I feel like a pest. hahaa. A parasite of society. Not working, not doing proper work. What do I do everyday? I have no idea. hee. enjoy the weekend first... OMG. our 4 years anniversay is on 13/8/2006. Has it been 4 years already? It's amazing.. Let there be lots and lots of 4 years to go..

our new found love: baking!!!!!

2006-07-23T00:49:00.000+10:00

Hee.. as the title may suggest, our latest interest is baking! we bought a hand mixer especially to bake our first ever product: erm.. it was a butter cake! although it's very simple, it was still very fun! hee. it's baked for our 47 months anniversary.

back into mushy's arms

2006-07-11T23:42:00.000+10:00

I'm back! busy typing away while mushy is sitting opposite me playing hard on his computer. everything seems surreal but nice! just 4 days ago, i was still in singapore and now i'm here in our cosy little house. Or should i say the biggest apartment that we ever had!! it's new, clean, big and i love it! credits to keke for finding such an apartment for such a good price! but the shower head is a bit problematic.. hee not powerful enough.

Looking at keke concentrating on his game and not blinking even once in like 2 mins amuses me a lot. He's a little fat who loves to play. I wonder how he managed to live past the 4 months alone in the house. frankly speaking, i would be able to do it.. since i'm such a timid person. I'll not leave u alone already okie? If things are within my say okie?

These few days has been tiring coz i have been packing, sorting out things and decorating the house according to what i like. And it made keke a bit angry. haha. QN to the one up there: why did u put 2 people who are so different together? hee... it's fated that opposites attract! But nonetheless, i managed to make the house looking cuter! hee with my little things here and there. The most impressive thing is the door hang of XIAO DING DANG which mushy helped me to hang up! it's 101% cute!!!

Words to keke: our 47 months anniversary soon, i dont miss singapore. Plz dont think i do okie. i'm just back in sydney to enjoy the times of u and me again and to enjoy myself in sydney be4 i go back forever. But it takes time to adapt again. really. especially when we go to places that we dont hang out in the past. I thought u would understand. But i'm settled already hee. coz at least our house is decorated with yeeyee's presence! hee. love u. always.

She is the one..

2006-07-09T20:03:00.000+10:00

From day one since we got together, i always knew that she would be the love of my life. The only person who could touch my soul and also the last person i would ever love that much. We have had our fair share of quarrels just like any couples. Yet i know we will always stand strong in the face of adversity. Our love for each other is unwavering and would not falter over time nor distance. However, there are times when i just feel that i am not good enough for her. There are many flaws to my character.. but then again who doesn't? I have to admit that i am more of the traditional male type.. mcp. For girls, its either u love it or hate it. In my case, i know my maro doesn't like me to be MCP. If there is anything she wants, she wants my constant giving and pampering. I know she may not feel that i pamper her or give in to her enough. Which is why she is constantly comparing the time when we 1st got together where i was the super giving bf. My rebuttal to her would be.. i have never changed since day 1. But is that really the case? I dun tink i will ever find out cos its impossible to compare. All i do know is that i love her even more than 4 yrs ago when we 1st met. I will continue to love and protect her even after marriage. Yes.. its marriage that i am talking about. Such is my love for her that i would not be able to fathom what life would be like if i ever lose her. Today, i made maro sad again. I hate myself for making her sad.. i want to see her happy all the time. In fact, the reason why maro loves her mushy is because mushy always makes her happy. Perhaps over time i have already lost my ability to make her laugh! Cos whenever she ask me to cheer her up. I seem to be at a lost.. haiz.. As i am typing this entry, my maro is sleeping in the room. She seems to be suffering from jet-lag. What ever it is, i am going to remind myself that i would give in to her whenever i can. Even if it means being a xiao nan ren. Pride means nothing to me if i ever lose her. 4 more days to our 47th month anniversary. We already plan on making a cake together on that very special day. Hopefully it will turn out nice.. Pls forgive me whenever i make u sad or cry. Words can no longer describe what u mean to me. I love you so so much.

MushyMaro 4Ever!

Reunited!

2006-07-08T17:41:00.000+10:00

Today IS THE DAY! hee.. feeling so ecstatic even as i blog now. The feeling of seeing my maro and hugging her in my arms is.. immeasurable. I will learn to treasure u more and more one. Mushymaro is forever! Nothing can spoil my mood for today.. Back to pampering my maro.. =D

super hectic days before i'm back!

2006-07-07T03:33:00.000+10:00

okie. GOOD NEWS: hee... 2 more days and i'll step foot on sydney. the long awaited day is coming. keke... the aura is back!!! hahaa. I had such busy days these days... that i really didnt manage to get the much needed sleep! argh. sleepy yee is a irritable yee. finally kinda finished packing... wooohoo.. i hate packing haha. coz I always take like 1 week or at least several days to finish packing. unlike my keke who always pack like the night before departure loh. feeling tired now.. but waiting for my hair to dry.

still got to go sgh tomolo early in the morning.. but i guess can take my own sweet time ba.. since I'm only there early to collect the cake and put it in the pantry for the staff. I got some food for mdm yoong, rena and nizam coz I really appreciate their help and their friendliness to this helpless little girl haha. Hopefully (fingers crossed) no one will say anything boliao like wat i'm sucking up to them loh haha. I'm so afraid of getting into trouble even before I start work hee. Oh.. went out for lunch with some of them on wed. Guess wat.. this person who's a principal RT treated us to lunch.. So nice of her i think! BUT hor damn it. I said something about this other prinicipal RT in front of her. Ops dunno whether she'll tell her. hahaa but I must watch my words in future already!

Haven been talking much to keke lately...missing him right now coz it's in the middle of the quietest nite! night time is the worse time to miss someone...

Went to visit ah ma before I fly tomolo.. felt so sad when I saw her.. coz she always look kind of sian sian one these days. Wanna encourage her.. but dunno how. I guess ah ma must have been a very very strong woman when she was young such that she gets very depressed about not being able to u know, cook herself, walk around without the help of the stick and not having perfect eyesight. Help her to massage her leg and back.. and comb her hair! i love to help ah ma tie her hair until it's neat and nice.. coz I want ah ma to look good. hahaa if that helps in increasing her quality of life. Couldnt stay long coz got to be back to wait for the ntuc delivery... when I left, i started getting emotional and shed some tears. Couldnt control myself... I guess, I'm just very sad to see ah ma not in the best of health.. before i fly.

keke must take care of keai okie? hee i'm a frail fragile and so vulerable. hahaa. 2 more days okiE! here i come sydney!!

Feeling sick..

2006-06-29T23:04:00.000+10:00

It's always a great feeling when i wanna blog and i realise that my cutie maro just updated our blog! hee.. i wun scold u de.. as long as u blog from time to time.. or else this blog will only have all my entries then wun be our blog le mah. Right? This blog is created so that when we grow old we can look back on our past entries and reflect on those days. (Hopefully this blog will still be around by then) Have been sick for the past few days. I guess it all started after eating at this Mongolian restaurant which serves lamb! OMG the lamb was so oily and greasy that i had a sore throat on the night after eating. It's really amazing loh.. nvr once did i eat something so heaty that i would feel the immediate effect of it. Even durians and tempura also not so jialat. As it has always been, sore throat, fever and flu have always been the best of friends. U could have imagine the torrid time i was having over the past few days. How i wish ke ai was around to take care of me. But i definitely dunwan to be falling sick when maro comes back! Ever since after my exams, i have been lazing around. watching bleach, tvb serials, world cup( whenever its showing) and dinner with friends. All these things do excite me but nothing beats spending time with my dear. So dear when u come back Sydney must be nice to keke k? Today i had a minor incident with my car. As i was driving i realise that the engine wasn't like wat it was normally. It was vibrating much more than usual. I also realise the thermostat (watever u call that thing tat measures hot and cold) was nearing the HOT instead of lying inbetween hot and cold. After driving home the bonnet actually had smoke coming out of the car loh! so damn scary man.. i am going to bring my car to the mechanic tomorrow. It better not break down on me just b4 maro is coming back loh. Apart from the car incident, i guess things have been running rather smoothly for me. Oh ya.. i am hoping the wireless comes back soon.. =( have been living on 56 k for the past 2 days. Cannot watch Bleach loh!! Who ever that use to supply me the free wireless pls continue to do bah! i am a cheapo!! haha.. the countdown continues!

8 days left! Looking forward to it...

9 days more!

2006-06-29T13:47:00.000+10:00

hee.. long time never blog le. scared keke scold me so must guai guai update when i'm free today!! 9 more days to going back.... cant imagine the excitement!! erm.. but at the same time, kind of getting used to the life here, my room, my super comfortable bed, the transport system, the food (nice ones.. haha) and my family. but just cant get used to not having keke around!!! keke!!! i'm going back le!!!!!!!!!!! endure a while more! den we'll nua together, go out and eat, buy groceries, movies, rot and stink together. haha

wat have i been doing lately? actually i have no idea as well. hee time just pass so fast. been meeting frenz to go out, shopping, eating and movies... just caught Silent Hill with yt and shuhui... super crap and boliao show. and the thing is that it's not scary at all but just super gruelsome loh. However, the show did make me think of the possibility of people living in the same place but different time dimension. there are just too many things that human dont understand and know about i guess.

I dun need to go back to NCC until next wed!!! Yippie!! since everytime i go there, i always have nothing much to do. But i must say this stay at NCC is somewhat good actually, i got to meet my future colleagues whom right now all appear very nice. Especially mdm yoong, rena and nizam. it's really fun talking cok with them when there's nothing to do at sim. I hope i'll have a good time when i start work surrounded by nice people minus the office politics which I am so not interested in.

Went to visit keke's mummy that day and ate wanton mee with her! sometimes i wish she's my mummy. hahaa so keke dun worry okie? i'll be nice to ur mummy...wahaha. hee. so u know what to do le hor? where's my 20k diamond ring? wahaha. keke.. ur mummy really dote on u a lot. hee she's working her ass off for u. taking on 2 jobs again.. hee the power of mum's love!

got to redo my honours project again. haiz. y did i do so badly for my lit review? regret regret now!!!sometimes i feel jenny doesnt like me very much haha. nvm. just get over with the honours project. It's a stupid honours project. or should i say honours yr is stupid. hee

9 more days okie! endure a while more only...and maro will be back le.

Exams Over!!!

2006-06-23T20:05:00.000+10:00

Its the time of the year where all students will rejoice. Yup the holidays are here at last.. After a gruelling and mind boggling 2 hours of Corporations Law, i finally got my break. However i am sure maro will say its a break that mushy doesn't deserve. Haha.. i would have to agree with her though. But watever it is, its all over.. for now. I have a list of things i want to do after the exams. 1. Clean up the apartment b cos its in a mess. 2. Clean up the toilet b cos its starting to look unsightly. 3. Change all the bed sheets and pillow case cover before maro comes back to Sydney. 4. Work like a dog during the 2 wks before maro comes back.
5. Watch World Cup everynight!! 6. Pray that the wireless dun give up on me so i can continue to watch Bleach on Youtube. (Using 56 k as i type this entry) With so many things to do i am very sure i wun be bored... haha.. Still can't believe its the holidays!!!

14 days and counting down... 回来吧！！

World Cup Fever! Go England Go!

2006-06-11T01:02:00.000+10:00

The world cup has arrived! After 4 years since Brazil last won it, the biggest sporting event in the world has come again! But sadly though, everytime the world cup comes around, it has to be during my exam period. So damn sad man.. anyway i promise myself that when i start working, i will take leave during the world cup! haha.. i mean how could anyone miss it when its a 4 yr event! Just finish watching England vs Paraguay. England has and always been my favourite team. Perhaps its due to the fact that we( singaporeans) have been watching the EPL since young. Therefore we tend to support England as though as its our home team. If i have to say, this is the strongest England team that they have assembled over the past 10 years. England must stay injury free if they are going to launch a serious world cup campaign. With so many talented players at their disposal, i am a little bit disappointed with the performance they put up tonight against Paraguay. I think the main problem lies with the manager! Sven Goran Eriksson is just not that good a manager to be frank. His style of playing is more on the defensive side.. imagine England defending after the 2nd min goal they had. It not only bores the whole game, there is still a danger that the opposition may come up with a last min goal and snatch a draw. In my opinion, England should consider changing their coach after this World cup ( even though they had alrdy). The ideal coaches would be Jose Mourinho, Sir Alex Ferguson, Arsene Wenger or Rafa Benitez. It is unlikely they will give up their club jobs for England but all i am suggesting is that its high time England find themselves a manager that will do the team justice. Its so sad to see that Gerrard and Lampard are not playing to their best of abilities under the tutorage of Eriksson. What ever it is, i really hope England will make it this time round. GO ENGLAND GO!!! Back to the nxt match now..

I hate exams..
27 days and counting down!

Birthdays are just so confusing!

2006-06-08T21:50:00.000+10:00

I am not sure if people have the same problem as me. But i seem to have difficulty remembering dates. Apart from my anniversary with maro, her birthday, my mum and brother's birthday, i cannot remember anyone else's already. There a number of people who matters alot to me and therefore knowing that i am not good with dates i actually resorted to saving these peoples' birth dates in a notepad which is stored in my harddisk. However, even with the aid of my notepad, i still tend to forget birthdays. The simple reason being that i don't check my notepad everyday! Sigh..guess i just have to make the extra effort to take note of the people whose birthday's matters to me. Somehow, i get the feeling that as u get older, birthday do not matter as much already. Put it in another simpler way, when you are young, birthdays are of high importance and priority. This also applies if u are celebrating your 70 year old birthday. But why is it so that when u reach ur middle life, pple just dun treat birthdays the same anymore? Recently, one of my very close fren in Australia just celebrated her birthday. I am so sorry that it slipped my mind. Therefore i want to take this opportunity to wish Cara a happy belated birthday! Dun be angry with Mel k? ( Btw she dun even have my blog addy -.-) To all my close friends whom i forgot your birth dates, pls do not be upset or angry. I am trying really hard to remember each and everyone's birthday. Exams are just round the corner and you can really feel the tension rising in school. Life is just so stressful.. Live life to the fullest!

Missing you

33 days more

2006-06-04T17:35:00.000+10:00

Yehz!! It's going to be 33 days more before I fly back to sydney. Good news is that I paid for the air tickets already so.. everything is kinda settled and not hanging in the air. So the intense reality of flying back is really starting to set in. Been a not hectic.. but kinda hectic week. haha. Sometimes I really cant remember how I spent my week or even my yesterday.

Oh went to catch Xmen! very nice ah. I like! Wolverine is, as always, looking good.. storm is chio! but I thought jean looked very old and sulky. Probably it's to suit the evil character! When xavier died.. I felt very sad! It's overall a good show lah.. with lots of action, bits of love and the best thing is there's the much anticipated 4th one coming. The 4th one I MUST WATCH WITH KEKE. haha. coz we never watch Xmen together wor.

I went shopping on friday.... lots and lots of things. But sometimes I think too much. It's pretty overwhelming to step into the shop and see lots of people and lots of messy clothes hanging or lying around. And wat's more, GSS...as good as it can be, is really a period for shops to get rid of their old stocks and oversized clothes. Great for the bigger people! but for the petite ones, like me, a bit pointless. Anyway, I bought a skirt on friday! hee very nice one with dots! very retro wor! But it's quite cheap less than 30 bucks! and I bought h2o's masks at 50% discount. Think I'll go get more since it's so cheap now! OH SHIT. it's the last day today.................... =( lazy to go out today. hee. nvm try to find people to help me buy.

I shall be hardworking and start working really hard on my project! but hor... hahaa. sometimes I also dunno what I'm doing. Especially my method of analyzing data with the software programs. I also dunno whether it really workS! Gonna read up more le.. mushy's exams coming too~! Hope keke will study hard and do well! Sometimes I think keke cant study too much hahaa. study too much he'll be confused by everything he studied. So maybe minimal is best for him.

Coming week is busy yet not busy. Contradicting. hee busy coz mon, tue, wed, fri got to go NCC. But everyday only like 1 or 2 patients to follow up. So in the end I still wasting my transport $ down to NCC. How I wish keke here! hee den at least I can meet him to go out. Might be going down to National Lib. Gonna borrow statistics books to read up... which I am so not interested in. Wil post something if I do something interesting like SHOPPING again! hahaa. I'm a shopaholic. Mushy next time must earn more $ wor.... wahaha.

July the 7th!!

2006-06-03T18:22:00.000+10:00

I am praying for the arrival of July the 7th.. that is the day whereby maro will fly from SG and come back to Sydney. Words cannot explain how much i miss her. It has been a long and gruelling wait since the day i left Singapore! Anyway the bad times are all going to be over soon and i am going to make sure my maro enjoys her last 1/2 yr in Sydney. Went to catch Xmen3 with Pei and Des recently. Didn't get a chance to update my blog about the movie due to the lousy internet connection i have! Anyway the internet connection is free so i guess i shouldn't ask for too much.. hee. Back to the movie, Xmen3 ROX totally. In fact if you ask me if i though Xmen3 was better than DVC the answer would be a YES. Can't wait for Xmen4 to be out. Seems like its not going to be the last stand anyway.. haha.. Time really flies and its almost the end of my semester whereby i would have to sit for my dreaded exams! Pei is going to go back Sg on the 16th of June this month. Wish her all the best and hope she will enjoy herself to the max in Sg eating all the yummy food! But right now i just hope that her projects and assignments would all go smoothly. Pei 加油!! I am sure you can do it one.. If ever you ask me what would my greatest wish be, i can tell u w/o blinking my eyes that i want to meet maro in my nxt life and the life after and after... and etc.. lol. Can't wait for July 7 to come!!

DVC review!

2006-05-26T21:32:00.000+10:00

Just watched Da Vinci Code with des and xueting today at Eastgardens Westfield. Tickets are only $8.50 there! omg so cheap!Back to the movie review.. Overall i would have to say the movie was alright. But the pace of the movie wasn't 1/2 as exhilarating as the book if i have to say. All the hype surrounding DVC didn't really live up. However i am very sure that if u had not read the book you would probably have enjoy the movie.Highlight of the movie was the female lead.. omg Audrey Tautou is such a babe! Sorry for all the girls watching the movie though.. because they either have the choice of watching Tom Hanks or the albino Silas. After the movie, i was asking des and xt y was the movie so different from the book, i then realise that i had gotten mixed up with Angels and Demons by Dan brown with DVC. haha.. i was thinking where was the illuminati... i'm really silly loh. Read my dear's blog b4 posting this entry. So so so sweet.. hee but also very mushy wor.. I am loving it! Days are crawling by without you by my side. Whenever i am with you i wish time would pass slower but now that u are not here i wish time would just fly. I wish that things will sail smoothly for my dear's project. She has been getting enough shit for it already. July 7 pls come faster!! Decided to change my blog's song into a canto song "有過去的女人" by 楊千嬅. This is the theme song of the tvb series 女人唔易做. After watching the serials, women has to go through so much more as compared to men. Imagine all the hassle and pain when a woman goes thru her periods and pregnancy. Women may be the fairer sex but i respect them just as much and look upon them as equals if not more. Exams are round the corner already.. can start to feel the uptight atmosphere at Uni. I also need to start working hard if i dunwan to disappoint my maro and of course my parents. Sometimes i wish i was 1/2 as hardworking as my maro.

Play hard study hard!!

2006-05-26T18:16:00.000+10:00

hee long time never blog le! must blog already.. if not wait xiao yuan angry! hee... today is an okie day for me ba! went to hospital as usual... waited for patients blah blah and never got any new patient today! damn. haiz. project sux. dun talk about it already.

My poor xiao yuan finally can relax after a week of torture from the erm.. i dunno what work that is. but the very chim group work hahaa. Mushy ah... must jiayou wor! coz u smart ma.. hee that's why things that people dunno how to do they ask u do! jiayou jiayou for ur studies wor... exams coming soon!!!

I watched da vinci code last sunday with my cousin at the new cathy cinplex! At first hor.. I was so excited to go there coz never been there before ma. But chey. The shops all haven open yet and the new cathy looks like the one at cine. But overall it's very nice lah coz it's new. DVC is erm........ quite nice ba! I must start. The places that were filmed were definitely magnificant. I dunno what places lah.. but those chapels, churches whatever all very nice. The lourve? is this how u spell? very nice too! Xiao yuan is going to watch with des and XT today! hahaa. cant wait for him to tell me wat he thought of the show and the amazing story of how XT finally decides to watch!

I booked my air ticket already!!!! so happie! cant wait to fly back to sydney.. I think I have enough of singapore already. I think the air in sydney is fresher and I cant wait to zoom back right into winteR! As cold as it may be... it's the last winter that i'll get to enjoy! Omg. I cant believe I spent 3 yrs in sydney already! It really doesnt feel that long...

Oh met up with the Income gang on tue. Finally. After so many months back in singapore haha. I guess everyone is busy.. but it was a good meeting lah. Got to catch up a lot with them.. and it's nice to see that despite the changes in everyone, in terms of looks, conversation, maturity, changes in their lifes.... they are still pretty much the same people who I known!! So happie that karen has a bf who seems to really dote on her a lot!

I miss xiao yuan a lot..coz without xiao yuan around, my weekends are always not taken haha. xiao yuan........where are u!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss going to xiao yuan's house and always lazing around on the bed. yuan yuan bu yao tang le.. haha. I always tell my yuan yuan not to lie on the bed, which happens to be his favourite hobby.

I love my lazy fat keke. hee.

Total insanity...

2006-05-22T01:42:00.000+10:00

It's been a while since i blogged. As the title suggest, the past few wks have driven me insane. It is not abt the amount of work and neither is it the lack of sleep or the ability to juggle between working and studying. What have been driving me crazy is the doing of grp work with my friends.. Group projects are meant to be done together and work together as a team. To put all the responsibilities on just one member is simply unfair to that person. It's even worse if that person happens to be ur fren. Does not knowing how to do gives u an excuse not to do it or rely on ur fren to finish it up for u? If that's the case, i am sure most pple would rather be assigned individual assignments instead. I am not trying to procastinate or to show anything. In fact i would have gladly done more than my fair share if it wasn't for the fact that its not the 1st time. Moral of the story? Avoid doing grp work with friends if u wish to maintain a healthy friendship. Life has been pretty boring even since i moved from Lidcombe to Mascot. Mascot is a pretty cool place because it gets really quiet at night.. despite being so near the airport. Haha.. the only bad thing perhaps is the petrol station that is situated just 2 mins away from my apartment. (According to one of my friends, the radiation emmitted from the petrol station is hazardous. Was it radiation anyway? Can't remember) another 1 more month and its the end of the semester.. really can't wait for this semester to end. It's definately been the hardest one since i started Uni. Getting closer to my colleagues but i definately feel that i am drifting away from HK frens. Weird to think that we were so close last year but we only went out once as a group since the start of the semester. Sometimes you just wonder if relationships or friendships are more fragile. I am starting to tink its the latter. My maro is working hard on her honours project and i have already accepted my fate that she would not be able to come back b4 July. Dunwan to make her anymore stress than her project is causing. Boyfriends are supposed to stand by their girlfriends aren't they? It's time to get back to my last group project for this semester. Can't wait for all these shit to be over.. So much things to do yet so little time. I am sure if pei is reading this she would agree too. So happy for her that she is going back Sg in less than a month's time. Despite all the unhappy things i mentioned above, i still care a lot for my friends. Hereby wishing everyone to stay happy always..

Our love will always prevail in the face of adversity.

Mushy misses Maro

45 months of MushyMaro sweetness

2006-05-13T03:03:00.000+10:00

45 months le!!!!!!!! hee sounds really long... but we're going to be together for 45 years, 45 decades, 45 centuries! wah.. possible? hahaa. when we were together for the first month, it was 1 month, 1 year, 1 decade and 1 century... now increase to 45 centuries! but hopefully our lifes will always intertwine in the future.

Although Mushy and Maro is currently not 'sticking' together 24 hours a day, but every soon, we will be. It's been a hard 2 months for u alone in Sydney but endure.. endure... and we'll be able to live happily together le! Then, we can start our fav game of giving ourselves nicknames where I always get the better and nicer soundly ones.. lol. Keke Keai, Mushy Maro, Xiaofeiji Xiaobaichuan, Kele Xuebi, Zhu Tou Zhu Tui, Da fat Xiao fat, Laogong Laopo, Yuan Yuan Xiao Yuan............OMG that's a lot... got any more? cant think right now... hee. but the ultimate fav is still Keke Keai ba... hahaa. it first started coz I'm very cute right? lol. I love u. Thanks for the 45 months... but I want u to rang wo rang wo rang wo!!!!!!!!!!!! rang wo ma... hee. I love it when u give in to me... even when I'm unreasonable, demanding and behaving like a total bitch. lol. So rang wo more okie? I'll be back soon.. endure. Look forward to the happie times together soon. The numerous cooking sessions, nua-ing on the futon together watching hk, korean shows and also the numerous eating out sessions we'll have okie! together forever..!

Our Anniversary!!

2006-05-13T00:43:00.000+10:00

This blog entry is dedicated to our 45th month anniversary.. It has been another month without little maro by my side. Life without her has been less than exciting. However as we all know life still goes on and the Earth will continue to revolve despite how much u may miss that person or how unhappy u may feel. In the beginning, maro thought that my love for her would subside after 2mths. But time has proven her wrong and it goes to show that things will work out fine if both parties are willing to put in efforts into their relationships. Couples break up most of the time being one of the party not willing to commit to the relationship anymore. I can still remember my 1st mth anniversay with maro.. come to think of it, it has really been a long way since then.. hee all the turbulences that we have had to endure. No matter the distance or time, i will never stop loving you. Happy 3 yrs 9 months maro!

so tired

2006-05-11T00:48:00.000+10:00

days just pass without u realizing it.. yuan yuan has been back in sydney for 2 mths le. and i have been niam by him for 2 mths too. it's so stressful to have to look after someone's attention while at the same time doing something proper for ur results. I dunno what else i should do. but yes, if given the choice to change my project or not again, i'll 100% change my project.

today is kinda like a happie day!! i finally got 2 patients for my project.... pray that there's be more good and nice and approachable people around. but somehow yuan yuan doesnt seem to share my joy. maybe 2 patients to him is not enough. but sometimes i hope for encouragement - especially from him. okie. I'm a freak okie. I demand a lot from my bf even when he's lonely out there, living by himself, working, studying, cooking by himself, washing his clothes by himself.

At sgh, there are fortunately many nice RT, especially the older ones... like yoong, ysunita, loi, nizam is also quite nice. Although he looks fierce. Thankfully, there's yoong around at sim to help look out for me... really appreciate the help she gave.. not forgetting rena!! she's so nice too, glad that we're future colleagues.

I went for hair treatment on monday coz very sick.. haha didnt know that monday got no simulation for my cases. sometimes it's really scary to feel so alone and lost at sgh. especially when u need something but u dunno who to ask.. anyway.. the hair treatment was good! especially the keratin oil... works on the very dry ends... my hair is in a mess. hee the colour is fading, my new hair growing out and it's so dry! what's more... xiao yuan seems unhappie that i went for treatment after asking the price! sometimes i wish he never find the cheap lobang.. coz now he like dun like me to spend on myself le.

so tired now........... had a bad sleep last nite.. was awake by the late night quarrel/fight of my parents. and couldnt get back to sleep after i woke up. such a terrible feeling. I think i'll fall asleep once i close my eyes!

have faith in me, in urself, in us.

Home...

2006-05-09T23:27:00.000+10:00

I changed the song to Michael Buble's Home. Heard the song while i was driving home from work today. After hearing the song, i suddenly felt homesick.. i miss my family my frens my maro. Even after living in Sydney for close to 3 yrs i still could not call this place home because a home is much more than just a place u live in. It is a haven and a sanctuary. A place where u know you could be safe and feel love by your loved ones. My home thereby resides in Singapore. Looking forward for maro to come over to Sydney. With her around, at least i can consider Sydney to be 1/2 a home. *Smiles* Had a really long day at work and dun feel like elaborating much. Going to slp now.. hope that people who chance upon this blog would enjoy the song.

Boredom!

2006-05-07T21:47:00.000+10:00

Haven been blogging for a few days already! Its such a huge relief after the Friday's exam. Just keeping my fingers cross now that i would make it through. Every weekend is the same to me nowadays.. quiet and of course boring. The only sound i would hear is the water from the sprinklers downstairs and the gusting of the wind. Watching shows on my com has become my only past time. Still remember last time i use to play Dota with ahda when he was in Perth. Nowadays no more kakis to play dota already. But fortunately this weekend xiu pei came over to my house to accompany me. Haha at least i dun feel so alone and dun have to resort to talking to myself. Once she is gone the house is back to its norm again. I really can't wait for maro to come back.. everynight i look forward to talking to maro on the phone. But everytime after hanging up the phone with maro i will feel a sense of emptiness. Hate being alone and living alone overseas. Maybe like what maro said of me.. i really 不甘寂寞吧！Anyway unhappy things aside, this weekend was one of the better ones i had. Really got a good rest in preparation for the long week ahead again. Lastly, i wish all of my friends, family and of course maro to stay happy despite what problems they may face.

PS: Where have maro gone to??

Clueless...

2006-05-03T22:10:00.000+10:00

Been trying very very hard to study these few days. But it seems that after studying the text over and over again, nothing seems familiar to me. I am starting to wonder if i could study at all. For the first time in my life i actually study way b4 the exam. Its not because i am trying to be hardworking or trying to change over a new leaf. Its simply because i do not have a clue on what is going on. I wish that you can just burn the textbook and drink it down with water and viola~ u will be able to remember all the things in the text. haha.. tats what i am .. a person that is full of crap.. kakaka. but i guess at least when u crap and its funny at least u make pple happy. Recently everyone is like so stressed out over their work. 1 piece of advice to all my friends who are mugging right now.. take it easy and remember that the most important thing is to try your best. If your best is not good enough for you then try harder nxt time.. i know i will try my very best since i have already made a promise to maro.. hee. Back to work again.. just 2 more days to go and its judgement day.. i hate financial accounting...

finally can see the lightpath to my project!

2006-05-03T21:22:00.000+10:00

Had a really good day resting at home.. although I did what I love most - clean the house! Tiring... but feels good to see a clean house! When mushy is busy, maro dun talk as much to him. both on phone and msn which makes maro feels weird! lol. long time never voice clip with u already! hee I shall do it more often today! lol.

It's the non-official start of my project tomorrow where I'll be sitting in for a doctors' review. This doctor, ET Chua, from what I heard, is a eccentric guy but NICE doctor. Let's pray he's really nice... I dun like snobbish and arrogant doctors who looks down upon everyone! But quite sianz... coz not close with the staff there... there got to lunch alone. I'm fine with lunching alone occassionally but if everyday den a bit too loner le. lol. If only mushy in singapore den he'll accompany me for lunch everyday!!

my mushy's exam coming... think he's stressed out by it. But hopefully, his last minute effort will pay off! jiayou! can play and go out on friday le!

Busy Busy!!!

2006-05-01T23:11:00.000+10:00

Bz Bz.. hee damn busy today.. super long day.. dunwan to blog much, so i am going to leave it short and sweet. Went to cut, dye and highlight my hair. Got it for a really cheap price since i know the hair dresser. Here's a pic of my new hairstyle! Was taken using a webcam so it isn't very clear. So much thing to do yet so little time! Back to work...
PS: Dying from 乡思病!! Mushymaro 4ever!! AJA AJA FIGHTI!!

who doesnt want a happie family?

2006-05-01T21:09:00.000+10:00

Today is May Day! Public hol!! but to me, it really doesnt matter haha. since everyday is like a hol to me. I do feel like a parasite sometimes, not contributing anything, not doing anything except for sleeping, eating, watching tv, going out and slacking. *Please grant me the wish of completing my project asap and fly back to sydney*

My mushy not at home today but left his msn and icq all on! hai wo yi wei he's at home.. i'm having quite a sucky day at home today. Looking at the title for my entry today, and if u know me well enough, u probably know how messy my family background is. I am utterly disgusted by my father who is a bloody drunken. Thanks to him, for drink driving, now my mummy got to take bus to work. It's no wonder that I disliked him since young. Sometimes I wonder would I be better off without a father? And the worse thing is..... my mushy isnt home to hear me complain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So maro is very upset. I wish that when I start work, I'll save enough money to buy a car so that I can send my mummy to work ba. I really love my mummy when she's not menopausal or throwing her tantrums. hehe

Poor mushy have to listen to my complaints like almost everyday... lol. That's why only u can be my mushy! Cant wait to talk to mushy tonite! hao xiang ni...

Have a break, Have a Kit Kat

2006-04-30T20:05:00.000+10:00

As the title suggests, i am currently taking a break from studying. Just finish studying another Chapter on Consolidation. Its a really interesting topic but the amt of things to take note of makes your head gets heavier and bigger with every page that you flip. The mistress of the blog has finally penned an entry! Since the very 1st day when i created this blog, it was never meant to be my blog alone. It is OUR blog.. therefore i hope maro will continue to pen her thoughts so mushy knows what she is thinking. (Despite the fact that we chat on the phone and msn everyday.. kekeke) Looking at the topic, i am sure everyone still uses that phrase till today.. have a break have a kit kat. Isn't it amazing how well advertised or how well this phrase was constructed that everytime u want to take a break you will say something like that. Ok ok i know its being a lil corny but i'm sure everyone uses it at some time or other. Woke up at 1 pm today then went to the city to pass some stuff to pei. Haven seen the girl for such a long long time. She has been really busy with her projects and stuff. One thing i learn from pei is that never judge someone by their appearances. At first sight, she may appear to be those really playful type of girls/women, but in actual fact, pei is so dedicated to her work that i find it unbelivable. (Must keep in touch even if bz k?) Comparatively, i think kiat ought to learn from his sister and stop slacking so much! haha... so much for bad mouthing my "brother". It seems like such a long time since i left Singapore, miss those times when we just keep hanging out at katong and lan the whole day. Like my maro always says.. 堕落青年. Anyway after passing things to pei, i went to have lunch alone!! (Maro pls take note). I would like to reiterate that i nvr ever had lunch or dinner or watever meals in SG alone.. you appear to be a bloody loner while eating alone! Not forgetting the fact that u tend to eat faster alone which means you will grow fat faster too! I spend 15 mins driving around Chinatown b4 i finally found a parking lot. Chinatown is so F**king crowded and congested during wkends. Went to my favourite Vietnamese restaurant (Pasteur) to have a bowl of special beef noodles. Wah i tell u.. the soup is really Sedap! hee.. but just as i was finishing my bowl of noodles and about to slurp up the last piece of beef. I saw a small black strand of.. yup hair.. and the worst thing is the hair was actually curly ( get the hint?). You can't understand how sick i felt when i saw that. In the beginning, i tried to continue with my food, but i really could not bring myself finish the remaining noodles. I then beckon for the staff to come and take a look at this strand of curly black hair. At first glance, he told me they could make the beef more cooked if i want it (apparently he needs a pair of specs).. i then shove the piece of beef closer to him b4 he finally saw the strand of curly black hair. He then quickly went to get me a new bowl of beef noodles while apologising profusely. Seeing that he was so apologetic, i decided to let the matter rest ( the extra bowl of noodles was taken into consideration too! ^_^) Being the greedy me, i finish the 2nd bowl of noodles with gusto. i had my lunch at around 4 pm which was actually pretty close to dinner time. This means that i just had my lunch and dinner together for just a cheap sum of $ 8.90 AUD( SGD 10.68 approx). Its not really that cheap lah.. but judging by the Aust standard of living, 8.90 for 2 meals is really worth it!Wah really TAN TIO. Maybe nxt time when i am hungry and poor i will try sneaking in a hair or 2 b4 i finish my food! I seem to have tons of rubbish to blog about. Guess living alone does contribute to this kind of behaviour. Okies.. time to go play my Archmage before i go back and study. I really miss my Family, Friends and my Maro!!

PS: I am praying hard that maro will be able to find her 18 patients asap so she can join me back in Sydney. Pray pray pray~!~!

first blog of Maro

2006-04-30T17:29:00.000+10:00

So happie that this blog finally came into existance!!! hehe my mushy has been saying he'll create a blog since duno when. So happie that he really created one for my bdae. tsk tsk. As the maro of this mushymaro blog... I definitely must post some entries! Feels weird to be blogging coz it's just like talking to no one?

Today I woke up at 2pm. oMg. I feel like a pig.. hee thanks to my darling who woke me up with his sms saying "why my fat baby never msg me? dun miss little fat at all?.... " which sounded 100% cute! Missing u every moment...

Just another R&R day for me, doing my fav household chores and chatting nonstop with my darling on msn and phone! I cant wait for my project to start and end quickly coz I cant wait to go back to Sydney to my Mushy!

Hao la.. I know Mushy has a hard exam coming up for him soon. So study hard for my sake okie! Let's all pray for Mushy to score well erm... or at least to pass lol. I believe in my little fat. Jiayou!

Just another day..

2006-04-29T18:17:00.000+10:00

Today was a really unproductive day. Woke up, made breakkie for myself, play archmage, went to sch to discuss the Man A presentation for nxt wk, went grocery shopping at Coles, then came home.. all these things took me 7 bloody hours to do!! Omg.. how unproductive can i be.. to think that the Finc B mid-sem exam is nxt friday with 6 chapters to study and i haven even started. The thought is really terrifying when u add to the fact that u have missed 3 tutorials for Finc B and only attended 2 lectures out of 8.. haha.. for all my friends who are reading my blog pls do pray for me? At times i am amazed by my laziness or rather lack of motivation for studying. Blah blah blah.. to put it simple, i just love to procastinate and put things to the last min. Serious stuff aside, even anyone of you are wondering why i put a korean song on my blog when i dun even understand.. erm corrections! i do understand a few phrases for eg:sarang hae, kajima, oupa. But still i have no idea what the song is singing abt. However, i am sure 99.9% of you who have heard the song must have found it nice! The song is Bogoshipda which is also the theme song from the popular korean drama Stairways to Heaven. Maybe people will be wondering why put this song since the drama serials was shown 2 yrs ago or was it 3? The reason being that this is the 1st ever drama that i finish watching with my maro! haha.. if u had read my profile i already said i don't like to watch movies. Still can remember the time when we wanted to watch Winter Sonata together but after watching 1-2 episodes she decided she was better off watching it alone. I am pretty amazed by myself that i actually enjoy watching Stairways to Heaven. Apart from the uber suaveness of the lead actor Kang Sang Woo, the plot and of course the music was the main attraction. I highly recommend everyone to watch it regardless of guys or girls. PS: Its no shame for guys to watch soapy korean dramas with their loved ones. I am going to mug like i nvr did b4 in my life after my dinner.. gtg now b4 my pizza turns black. Hope my maro will post some entries when she is free.. Missing her lots.

First Ever Blog

2006-04-23T23:25:00.000+10:00

This is the first time i ever created a blog... feels kindda weird to be typing to nothing! in fact i am not even sure if anyone will read this.. haha. I guess boredom can really cause someone to do weird stuff. But at least i know this blog has a meaning to it ok! i am creating this blog for my maro! now u know that mushy maro isn't wrong spelling ok? hee.. hope all mashimaro fans out there wun be "mushed" out by the blog's title. Basically this blog is going to revolve around the lives of mushy and maro.. mushy is me btw so be prepared for mushy stuff all year round!! Just kidding!! The time now is 11.08 pm in Sydney. I am supposed to be reading up on my Financial accounting text but here i am doing bo liao stuff again! i just can't seem to study can i ? I had bread with tuna and ham for lunch and a pizza for dinner. When you are leaving alone u just dun really bother cooking. Somehow having a blog when u are living alone seems like the right thing to do! Because since you can't talk to anyone you can at least type it out and hope someone out there will read it.. I guess that's as much as i am going to type tonight.. just want to add that i miss my dear so so so so so so so so so much.. ok its being a little bit irritating by typing so many sos! So tat's where SOS comes about! for being too LohSo(h). Sigh.. i wish time pass faster.